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happy birthday dear!!!!

2006-10-29T00:53:00.000+08:00

haha.. just got back from jalan raye.. n... im damnnnn tired and nak feeling termuntah.. but... 1st of all..

~ HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO DEAR!!!!! ~

haha!!! oredi 17 sey... wahhh.. haha.. more matured and older eh.. haha.. love u alot dear.. and wish u the best in ur life... hakz.. have a great bdae k!! hakz.. u belo! haha.. be happy k!!

see.. this entry just for her.. hakz.. i dont have any energy to type anymore.. haha..

*lovee her.. happy bdae dear... blueeek!*
~tata~

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!

2006-10-25T00:24:00.000+08:00

1st... to all..

~SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!~

haha... wooohooo! today is the 1st day of raya... to all.. maaf zahir dan batin. Hope you guys forgive me for any mistakes i've made to you.. haha.. its the season of forgiveness... haha.. and love!.. haha.. woohoooooooo~

haha.. well.. today was a blast... my family as usual very the kecoh*noisy*... haha.. wat do you expect from a big family that consist 5 crazy siblings... haha.. so yah.. it was great today.. really great.. but we only cover around 6 houses.. cos in the morning till 2pm my relatives keep coming. haha.. so yah.. morning it was sooo cheerful and happening at my house.. haha...

wooosh! haha.. now im sitting here.. happy wif today,, haha... and well.. tomorrow schooling!!! *bawls*.. haha.. wth! kena go school on 2nd day of raya.. wtf... but nvm lar.. haha.. im meeting my d'Navista crew to rehearse our dance.. wooohooo.. i got another part cheographed oredi.. now im getting back my group moves*i hope*.. haha.. i realized i becoming better in dancing.. especially on my own.. haha.. wooosh! hakz... so yah.. tmr tmr.. all will die lor.. hakz!

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side note:

well... this one is for Her.. haha... who?? well.. most of u know who.. haha... the girl who had been wif me all this while.. and its coming to 6 mths rite now.. haha.. time fly faster den i could imagine.. haha.. woosh!.. well.. she been wif me throughout this coming 6 mths and i enjoy every single moment wif her.. she shares my joy, sadness and the everyday chapter of my life.. honestly.. i cant imagine how it will be without her.. she makes me laugh, smile, cry and etc... she makes me wish, think and imagine.. haha.. she support me in whatever thing that i do.. just like my family... and i love her for dat.. she is the one girl that i really adore.. my Belo girl, who always spend time with me and dont mind waiting for me.. well.. don't REALLY mind waiting here and there.. hehe... i really looking forward to be wif her everyday... hakz.. cos she is the only one sweet, cute little belo for me...

still cant guess who??

hakz.. She is Fahimah lar!... <3

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there.. a post for her! haha.. bluek! hakz.. well... its been great all this while.. and i hope things will get better in my life for she, me and my family and everyone else that i love...

*green packet plssssssssssssssssssssss*
~tata~

Happy Deepavali!!

2006-10-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

haha.. 1st of all...

~HAPPY DEEPAVALI to ALL!!!!~

haha.. its been a great day today... haha... celebrating deepavali wif frens is great.. hakz... so yah. Today me, dear, ash, dominic, kay, shawn? and priya went to mato's house for deepavali.. haha.. it was fun.. we ate alot till our stomach bloat.. the food were great,, haha.. mato and ash at one point threw bomb bags out from the window to scare an old uncle at the playground.. damn hilarious! haha.. basically it was fun ah.. 1st time sia i went to celebrate deepavali wif frens.. haha.. thanx mato!! haha.. and thanx kay for the cookies and assorted cakes from her mom! haha.. den went home at payar lebar wif dear and kay.. haha..

so yah.. school reopening soon.. VERY soon.. haha.. hari raya in about.. 3 days??? haha.. weeee!! haha.. i celebrate both raya and diwali cos im indian muslim.. haha.. lucky eh~ haha... so yah. weeeeeeeeee~ haha...

and 1 more thing... 3rd November dance competition.. die... my new dance crew that i formed has a new member.. haha.. woohooo~ but need to cheograph and time is running short!! hakz.. monday maybe rehearse.. wooosh!

the name...

~d'Navista~

haha.. wooosh! u will know wat it mean soon.. haha..~

*festive season..*
~tata~

The End...

2006-10-15T14:43:00.000+08:00

Magus Luna 2... The Fairytales...

What can i say???? It was another great success by DramaTec!!!!! WOOOOSH!!!!!!

i was damn happy and proud of my dramatec members.. yesterday night, they prove to people that they can put up a show that is damn worthy!! and i love u guys alot!!!

It started off about 2-3 months ago... and the progress seems quite slow.. The main comm again and again teach acting skills for the actors to use and again, the actors did not really use the skills that was taught. And one the final week, they began to progress ALOT and they really use the skills taught and advises given. Everyday we breakfast together. Monday we went to Mc, tuesday went to tecno, wednesday to KFC, thursday to habibie, friday to the Prata shop (only me and dear went habibie cos she dont like the prata shop cos nothing to eat) and Saturday, order in food.... and this one whole week had strengthen the bonds between us all.. i love my DT members.. really do...

On the performance nite itself, everyone was nervous and wanting to go to toilet to cool their self.. everyone keep coming to me and say, "faz!! can go toilet??? " and i keep saying yes until there was only few people left backstage. haha!!

The show started off at 7.40pm exactly after we got a full house wif full of energetic audiences... Ashwin and Priya was the SM and ASM... and pika was FOH... haha.. so we started with the opening act, the Circus! it was really like a circus stupid performance and i enjoy it.. haha.. and after dat, the emcees (mato and elias) came out to start off the nite proper. After that is a performance by Ghalia, led by Herzi and the gerls. It was a touching story that had alot of good moments and acting elements. They did great and they look beautiful on that nite. After Ghalia is the Magic singers, me and Elias. Bro, we rock! haha.. i saw gerls crying and staring at us when we perform.. haha.. after us, The Unicorn and The Cat (by mas and yaz)... they, as usual, was impressive and funny! i love both of them alot... they did great too! haha.. and after them, dilly and joe rap. haha.. they are damn damn damn funny that audience keep laughing here and there! kudos to them! kay even commented, "it was like a totally different show!"... haha.. den came The MonkeyMan! hakz! thanx mato for making me part of it and it was really funny and wise! haha.. a good performance about wise teachings and values. haha.. then it was the Magic Singers again and this time, my fren said the lyrics was beautiful and again, girls had teary eyes and stared at us! hehe,.. after dat, the 3 wishes!! they end the acting of the nite with their story which the audience enjoyed alot! haha.. they did great!! after 3 wishes, it was my dance crew, Forza!!! They did great and i love theM!!! haha!! Thanx for being special guest and perform for my event!! haha!!! and lastly, we did the ending of Magus Luna with another song and movements. This time, girls did cry and staring at us... wahaha! and then, the nite end magically with Magus Luna lingering in the air...

that was the nite programs... and u know wat, after the performances, i was walking around with people saying "great vocals" and "great voice" and "great performances" and "i enjoy the whole show"... i was walking around PROUDLY! This is my dramatec members... and i love them.. they make me proud... they really do... i love all of them... kay, mas, yaz, harbi, ash, mato, priya, lewis, elias, Fi1 and 2, hina, atina, eling, charmaine, herzi, munah, liyana, aishah, nisha, dil, joe, da hong, pika, raz, emily, oliver & wei chia... i love u people!

i would like to thanx my samba people wif gengmilah ( rao, fad, shikin, bariah, yati and etc), wen long and marianne, dear's sis and bro, hanna and Haider.. forzas, nadira, hally, iggy, shaiful and especially PAUL for coming down to our performance.. and special thanx to NADI crew and audiences.. haha...

the nite was indeed great.. another great success by DramaTec... actually.. i got ALOT MORE to say... ALOT MORE to thanx.. ALOT more to be proud of.. but.. i was really damn happy dat i cant express my feelings for my club... haiz... now, im suffering the post-Magus Luna...i miss it.. hehe... haiz.. but still!! we got ALOT to look forward to in the near future iiight! haha!

so catch us soon!!

* Love my DT!!*
~tata~

quizzesss....

2006-10-07T19:49:00.000+08:00

What will happen on the first day of school?

• Faiz will challenge you to a hard boiled egg eating contest and make you throw up

• Azhar will try to make out with you because they are drunk

• Alfri will show how out of shape they are in gym class

• Faarisi will skip the first day... and probably the second

• Yueh Wan will come to school wearing only a potato sack and say 'don't ask.'

'What will happen on the first day of school?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Kindness

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

see.. haha.. i love dear becos of her kindness.. haha

just took this quiz... wat the fook... Bul wanna make out????? Rainbow wear potato sack??? wahaha... wth... bored today.. hakz.. bad mood in the afternoon dont know why.. but better now..~ heh~

here we are.. again.. haha!

2006-10-06T00:37:00.000+08:00

As people said.... picture paints a thousand words. So here is the picture!!!

~ HAPPY 5 MONTHS ANNIVESARRY!!!! ~

haha.. so yah.. today after work which end at 12pm( cos not much reservation... so can get release earlier.. wooosh!! haha ), i slept in locker room until 1pm... haha.. then went to Bugis to meet dear... hakz.. so while meeting her, i did some last minute shopping and bought 2 things which i find really cute.. haha.. so yeshhh...

Met dear at 3pm... then after dat, we slack arnd Bugis becos its fasting month and we are quite limited to things.. but it was still fun and swit!!!! then.. we went to eat and i send her home.. hakz.. she look pretty today.. as always lar.. haha!! so yah.. even though today was slacking, i enjoyed today.. haha.. it was fun.. haha.. and dear.. thanx for the bracalet!! haha!! i love it! Thanx!!!!

so yah.. its been 5 months... hakz.. time went sooo fast.. and its been better for us.. all the times we spend make us closer.. haha.. its been great wif u dear.. haha.. love u!!! and may we have a long years ahead.. hakz! once again... happy anni!!

* 5 months!!! wooossshhh!!! *
~tata~

wattt the hellll...

2006-09-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

ok guys... if u had read the previous entry... PLEASE.. please ignore it!!! haha!!! its my damn annoying couzin who is trying to sabo me and trying to imitate my style of typing!!! he said he wanna test me or sumting like dat cum sabo.. haha.. wth~ ishhhh... siak ah he.. not funny seh.. den just now when im working he can somemore at phone sound innocent!! haha.. later i meet him i strangle him.. haha.. sorry dear... hakz.. ~

anyway.. today work was great.. tiring but great ah.. haha.. getting use back to the place.. haha. wooosh~ haha.. den meet dear.. go eat wif her frens.. never go dance today.. so crew.. haha.. so yah.. haha love her!

i will update more later! haha.. now tired ah...

*love her ah!*
~tata~

wooosh~!

2006-09-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

haiyah!!!

dance floor... it was not as great as expected.. but hey!! now i realized there soooo many dance talents in Singapore!! it was great to see a variation of dances from Ballet, salsa, disco, raggae, hip hop and etc...! haha.. and was great ah.. really fun.. haha.. BUT...

Forza didnt get in the dance floor...!!! due to some unforseen circumstances.. but its ok.. haha.. at least we got the experience and exposure lor.. haha.. but nvm, dance floor TOO much commitment and VERY strict anyway.. haha.. next up, Forza maybe got a performance coming up and oso another competition, Pulse.. ahakz! it will be great... so keep lookout for us yeah~ hakz! and thanx to all those who support me and etc,.. hakz.. support us more k!! haha..

and today.. well... today is monday.. went to watch Singapore idol result live at indoor stadium!! omg.. it was really damn high and noisy!! haha.. got alot of performances by the top 10 finalist, rahimah rahim(the old one mind u), ENERGY, Electrico, Taufik batisah and of course the 2 finalist.. haha.. it was great ah.. my ear pain pain.. ahakz!! soo many shouts and screams.. but ah, today i sick sia.. soo quite irritating ah my cough, flu and noisy environment.. but still, i enjoy it!! later i update wif pics ok!!! haha..

sooo tmr going work.. at Hyatt hotel at banquet.. easier lar work there.. somemore my bro in law there oso.. haha.. so he can help me.. hakz.. den D sms me and told me Thursday Forza got dance rehearsal!!! wooosh!!! i hope can make it! haha.. so yah.. haha.. alot of events happening.. but great ah~ haha.. but still... i cannot miss prayers too much!! hakz.. nvm.. at work place can pray oso.. cey.. haha

so yah~ haha.. im still sick and hopefully tmr become better!!! i dont like ah sick sick.. ishhh.. haha.. somemore ah.. during fasting month!!! hakz

so yah.. get better soon fadz!! hakz!

* weeeee *
~tata~

DAMN TIRED!!!

2006-09-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

haha.. wow... we just finished our dance just now arnd 11.30pm...

and i just ate my meal for one whole day just now at 12am.. haha..!

well.. the day started out ok ok.. den it got worse.. and lastly at nite, it became better. Sorry dear.. i love u.. haha.. i see u later in the morning ah! haha.. bluek~

and magg!!!! bro, relax.. i knew u stress out.. and thanx cos just now when i need someone to talk to u listen.. haiz.. i hope u get better soon iight.. haha.. deng~

and woooooooooooshhhhhhhhhh!!!! TODAY IS DANCE FLOOR AUDITION!!!!!!

IM VERY DAMN NERVOUS!!!! argh!! haha.. meeting the Forza at arnd 5+am.. we rehearsing for the last time, den we going there arnd 7am.. haiizzzz.. im worried!!! i love our steps!!! its not the kiddish2 steps of course.. its damn high and power ah.. the difficult thing is the synchronising cos the steps damn fast... heh.. we dancing reggae and hopefully the judge will be impress wif our 1 1/2 minute of audition!! and Forza... thanx.. thanx for accepting me as the only male in ur group and gave me the chance to dance wif u gerls!!! haha.. i love u gerls!!! and dont worry iight!!! we do our best tmr!!! wooosh!!! haha!

wish me luck guys!!!!

and btw.. to those who sms me and wanna go watch tmr to support... later i sms in the morning if u guys can come anot.. cos i scared its a close audition and u guys cannot come in.. anyway.. to know that u guys wanna come and support is good enuf for me.. haha... love ya too!!! wish us luck!!!!

weeeeeee~

* ^_^v *
~tata~

to the top...

2006-09-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

well.. my body aching rite now.. and im sooooo tired dat i slept for entire day.. haha.. sorry dear never go out.. haha.. anyway today entry is for fun and myself.. so.. if u guys wan, just continue reading then! heh~

welll.... starting from next week to saturday, i guess there will be rehearsals everyday! ahakz! wohoooo~ im enjoying it! haha.. but tiring of course.. and if anybody know where to get GREEN SINGLET that is for dance please tell me.. and who have WHITE jacket wif zip and hood please tell meee oso.. haha.. i dunoo how the hell im getting those~ i went to the shops at tampines interchange and only got black, grey or white singlets.. die~~~~

haiz.. my bro magg said to me, "i dont know im heading in my life" in malay lar.. and i tot about it...

well.. i decided. I love playing guitar and feel the flow of music.. but i still got alot to learn of course to be the best... and i got a dream to be a star.. a rockstar.. i wanna perform live with my band... and i dunno how long it will take to achieve that dream.. but if there is hope, i will go down that path... However, now... i really wanna achieve to be a dancer.. i decided that i wanna focus on dance and techniques and be best in one thing... cos until now, i love to do all rounded thing. I beatbox, sing, dance, act, musical instrument and all kind of sports i participated and do.. but.. i am never focus in 1 main thing.. and now i really discover my real passion. and its Dance.. when i dance.. i tend to forget all problems and concentrate on it. I really feel the music and move to it. Its feels like to be free of things/problems/burden/responsibilties and etc.. however, i too have a lot to learn in dance.. and i will try to achieve to be a great dancer.. even if my future of dancing is far or impossible, i will train hard and dance. And if in the future i didnt achieve to be a great dancer or star, at least i have no regret in life cos i had tried it and i am proud to have experience it. BUT until then, i would strive to be a great dancer...

wah~ haha.. its like my resolution of the year.. only it is now.. no.. its not due to the dance floor competition.. i always wanna dance since i was in my secondary school year.. but in secondary school year, i was still a kid and we only dance for teachers day and cheerleading for sport day.. and now, when im growing up.. i want to do a more serious dance.. hakz.. yeah... bluek~ hakz!

so yah.. as i was saying at first.. support my dance group this saturday k!! IF everything goes well.. haha.. i really hope we get tru the audtion.. even though the chances MAY be 80%, 50%, 10% or even 1%.. all is not lost as long as it is not 0%... haha.. weeee~ i will update u guys on friday if all goes well on the timing den.. till den.. i wont be updating the blog i GUESS for the rest of the week.. haha.. except friday maybe.. hakz.. so...

* love everyone! *
~tata~

this 2 days...

2006-09-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

well... here i am.. blogging about what happened to me this 2 days..

on Wednesday, woke up early in the morning to go for some job interview. damn i waste freaking time sia... what the foooodddd.. well.. after dat i straight go samba camp at 6.45pm, just in time for dinner!!! wooosh!! haha.. it was great to see the people in samba again.. after food, we go and watch Santana concert in LT.. wow.. its like what the hell ah... of course santana play damn well lar.. haha.. my favourite is Smooth.. hakz.. den after dat i do some space walking with them and it was such a pain!! haha.. they are sooo difficult to handle than my dramatec people.. lol.. they keep making jokes and etc.. but it was fun all the same.. den we play a "scavenger-hunt" game where there are crime scenes and characters around the school.. we have to find clues and solve what happened on the crime scene.. it was damnnnn irritating but fun! haha.. den after dat everyone lepak and watch movie.. den eat.. den ghost stories.. den one by one ochestra music appear.. *snoring lar!*.. haha.. left me, zat and kin by 6am.. den we slept for 2 hrs.. haha.. tiring sia....

den on Thursday, today..
woke up and bath of course.. den go eat.. den after dat we do our group individual instrumental pieces.. lol... we have to create our own music wif the limited people and instruments.. and so.. my group 2 we do some stupid BUT original stuff.. lol.. it was damnnnn funny sia! haha.. and we are like crapping all the way lar.. me and bert.. mir oso.. haha.. and we won prize.. wooosh! haha.. fun lar.. while waiting for results.. me and bambang do some commercial break.. we go up to front and just sing imprompto songs since everyone want us to play.. haha.. and it was damn funny!! i had the members joining too.. haha.. especially the samba camp song! haha.. everyone was like pratically putting up their hand and sing along! haha.. wah.. its like a small gig of my own.. heh~ fun!!

den go home after slack in school and rest(sleep on floor).. haha.. den at home.. i ate den at 7.45pm met our dance coach.. haha.. den we went and meet the rest of ForzaIrresistable team.. haha.. i tink like dat ah our team name.. haha.. im Fadz Forza.. haha.. fun ah.. today dance was more comfortable and easier.. it was girl hip hop sooo we do quite alot of smooth body and shake.. it was damn fun.. haha.. den after dat we had our "test".. we have to dance freestyle individually.. i was 1st SINCE im the ONLY boy in the group.. haha.. nabeh pop pop.. den after adt pad.. den dee.. den irah and lastly fifi.. haha.. nice sia.. hakz.. it wa great and fun ah.. den we end the nite by dancing for the last time.. SAturday meeting them EARLY in the MORNING at around 8-9.30am to go dance at SMU!!! wahhhhhhhh... hakz.. go there with them.. fun ah they all.. especially irah... keep making stupid jokes and hyper sia she.. now i felt more comfortable and today.. i wore shoe for dance! haha.. so feel more at ease lor~

so yah.. i really enjoyed these 2 days.. haiz.. only got a few setbacks... haiz...

to u... im sorry if u are hurt again.. im sorry IF im useless to you.. im sorry.. but i still love u.. and i still want u.. but im quite tired of the thing dat u are tired too.. u know wat i mean.. but still.. im sorry and thanx for still being here.. i love u... and hope things will be better..

woosh~! haha.. so yeah..

until next time folks...

* great days.. *
~tata~

bdae!!!!!

2006-09-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

okie...

i been working hard to find job.. lol.. not working hard at work but finding work.. nabeh cinabet lar... nowadays ah soooo many stupid sales job. aiyohhh... i want to find a proper and fun and loving job!!! argh! die die.. how ah?? tell me ler.. if anyone can help me find job pleaseeee tell me..

well, the other day,Saturday, got gang picnic.. it was damn lovely and fun! lol.. we did sooo many games and dares and stuff..lol.. at East Coast.. but the totureous thing was the toilet!!! it was damn far lar!!! haha.. i tink i wanna piss oso burst sia.. haha.. which me and Dev(sha boifren) nearly did.. we like jumping arnd on the way to the toilet cos we cant hold anymore,.. lol..

so.. i heard the animals in the zoo making noise and jumping here and there.. i heard the plane crash in the amazon jungle.. i hearddddddddddd........

BUL's BDAE!!!! HAPPY 18th BDAE BRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha.. at long last.. the youngest among the boys in the gang had turn 18 yesterday.. lol.. wah!!! haha.. today was supose to be his celebration but sorry bro i didnt come!! i really wan to!!! im really sorry k! haha.. well.. this guy, bul, is the gang bibik.. lol! no lar.. our dearest bro too//.. we had gone tru so many thing and well.. its been great this 5/6-7 years.. haha.. always kena disturb but still.. he is sporting and take jokes.. haha.. well.. happy 18th bdae bro and wish u have all the bananas in the world.. ooppss.. i mean happiness! haha

^_^v

* x_X bdae... ooooo*
~tata~

Happy 4 Months!!

2006-09-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

well.. hallozz peepz.. haha... today will be a short entry..

to dear,

~Happy 4 Months!!!! woohhooo!!! haha!!~

today is really fun and exciting. I enjoy today. Watched Monster House and go eat and etc wif dearie.. haha.. i really enjoyed today.. thanx for the cute present dearie.. haha.. hope u enjoy today alot and had a nice time.. ;p

dear, thanx for today... love u alot!! And from now, let us be better k. Sorry if i hurt u and thanx for everything.. <3 u...

i will update more wif pics and etc! too tired now! haha... later den!!!

* love her *
~tata~

us by the bay.. haha

a day wif Fadz and Hannah...

2006-09-04T20:06:00.000+08:00

well... i am.. utterly dissapointed.. truly i am...

well.. i dunnoo wat to say.. i guess i rite to where i am now huh... hmm...

well... today had a lovely day wif hannah.. hakz.. LUCKY for me she wanna accompany me find job! haha.. cos i scared she wont reply cos i sms her 3+am mah! haha.. so we met at 11.30am at dhobu ghout... den we like stupid ppl ler sitting by the side and choosing jobs.. haha.. i wore an old school style today.. wif my "click 5 like" hair and den i button up my long white sleeve shirt to give the smart and jap kinda look.. haha.. so yah..

was VERY tired.. we first go Tanjong Pagar.. haha.. we soooo bendan dat at 1st.. we took the train to Pasir Ris!!!! stupid! haha.. but luckily i look tru the map and realized that tanjong pagar was the other way.. haha.. wth.. den we go and apply 2 job there.. then we go Bugis, met mel and yvonne den me and hannah go another interview.. haha.. at last.. by our last interview, which we hope we really get (standard chaltered * i tink the spelling lyk dat * bank), we are sooo damn tired and super duper hungry and thirsty cos we havent eat and drink! haha..and at last, we went to Banquet.. gosh.. like heaven sia when we get our 1st sip of drink!! haha.. so yeah.. haha..

den hannah went back to Bugis to meet her boifren and i went home.. haha.. she super duper tired lor.. she jelous dat i get to go home and rest! ^_^v haha! but den again.. i was the one who suppose to be jelous cos go home and never meet anybody else.. oh well..

haiz.. ~wtf... FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh! ~

*just letting go of some fuck up feeling.. and im having headache ah..*
haha.. haiyoh.. so Wednesday meeting Hannah most probably.. see lor.. haha..

*a meaningful day*
~tata~

Happy Birthday to...

2006-09-03T00:10:00.000+08:00

first of all...

I love my family..

haha..

den..

i love Her...

then..
haha.. thats all..

no lar... actually.. i wanna say...

~HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MAGG!!!!~

yup yup.. you all heard it rite.. our little bro finally turn 18 today.. Ishi bdae was during exam week so we cant celebrate much.. haha.. but him ah.. haha.. so yah.. today me, lala, bul, fri, magg, raz and ishi went out to celebrate his birthday.. haha.. enjoy today.. haha.. we go eat.. den hang out.. den go Swensen.. where Magg HAD TO STAND ON THE CHAIR WHILE EVERYONE SINGING BIRTHDAY SONG FOR HIM!!! haha.. wth.. haha.. so yah.. its been great.. den we go jamming.. had a great and fun day today lar.. haha.. so yah.. its the magg's birthday... haha.. and we enjoy.. hope u does too bro.. haha.. 5 yrs and still counting.. haha.. wif the gang.. haha.. really awesome.. wish him luck in the future and hope he achieve his dream...

and ishi!! we make up for yours tau!!! jangan kecik hati.. haha.. si bul bdae is... 11th September.. next week.. haha...

well....

whos birthday coming up again???? ( pretend as if forget his birthday! haha) no lar...

haha.. so yah.. soo once again.. happy birthday magg!

*fun!*
~tata~

fulfilling weekend.. hakz~

2006-08-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

Well! These 2 days are like a “family day for me”. Haha.. well… to recall back.. hakz… here how my weekends were spend…

Saturday:
Went to my 3^rd sis house at Sengkang around 3pm wif my 4^th sis and her fiancé.. well.. it was a ceremony for our late ancestors and my late auntie, uncle and father.. so we do a little of pray.. all my sis were there of course wif my bros in laws.. and my closest uncle came.. 3 grandma oso there, including my beloved own grandma.. haha.. den auntie and uncle oso came abit later on and my couzs oso..haha.. after the prayer ceremony.. A LOT of food was served!! Haha.. Got my favourite of course (chicken!!), got buttered prawn.. got steam fishes.. got burnt fish (ikan bakar in malay if im not wrong).. and got CHILLI CRAB!!! Weeeee~ haha.. I purposely mention to make Dear jealous!!! Lol!! Well.. I eat a lot of the prawns of course. Haha… after dat slack around and just sing and etc.. heh.. den.. we celebrate MOM’S BIRTHDAY!!!! Weeeee!!! HAPPT BDAE TO MY DEAREST MOM FROM ME AND FIMA!!!! Haha!!! Weeee~ the chocolate cake was damnnn nice lar.. haha.. bluek~ hakz.. love you mom.. haha! And end the day wif happily ever after.. haha… it was fun ar of course! :p

Sunday:
Well… went to dear’s area around 4pm.. haha.. plan to buy some stuff den watch dvd at her house.. and guess wat….. her aunties and uncles are all there!!! Lol.. so yah.. lucky I knew some oredi but still shy ah.. haha.. when I reached, the couzs and uncles and aunt were singing karaoke and I joined in.. haha.. den play crazy games.. haha.. fuunnyy ah they.. haha.. fun to hang out wif.. hakz.. so yah.. a long day but I will just describe it in 3 words… Fun and Lovely.. haha.. thanx to her mama and papa and thanx to dear of course.. haha.. I enjoyed myself a lot.. hakz.. lucky im not the really shy person if not….. DIE.. haha.. juz kidd…

Haha.. so yah.. these 2 days are spend wif my dearest family and her family.. haha.. I enjoy my weekend truly.. haha.. tired but lovely… haha.. and tmr gonna go study of course.. haha..

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On a side note… I miss my classmates!!!! A LOT!!!!!! I always blog about missing sumone so ppl.. please don’t be jealous wif this short post for my classmates.. hehe.. well.. one semester pass so fast… and I enjoy my time wif all my classmates.. from strangers.. we bcame close frens.. I love u guys.. sometimes I felt bad cos when u guys wanna go eat, u guys always choose a place that I can eat.. If the place got pork or the place I don’t like to eat, u guys will change the place.. I thanx u guys for that.. u guys speak in Chinese and teach me how to.. u guys translate ur jokes and etc and always remember to speak English so I understand.. u guys don’t push me aside just because im the only malay wif u guys.. dats why… dats why I appreciate u guys and love u guys a lot!! And I really wish… that next semester, we be in the same class again.. My 2 favourite girl, Melissa and Hanna, My gay partner: Kelvin, Da Hong and Jason, My “spoil” girl: Yvonne, My funny girl: Serena, My “siong” partners: Zhong Wei, “Lucify” and Jonathan… I love u guys a lot… thanx…

Here are some pics… hakz.. enjoys~

Jonathan, Yvonne and Melissa.. see Da Hong behind trying to get into the pic! haha..

Me, Kelvin and Lucify at lecture.. smart ah we.. haha.. handsome mah.. hakz..

Lovely us! Dahong, Yvonne, Me, Hannah, Serena and Melissa!! haha.. wee~

The gang at Steam Boat celebrating Yvonne bdae!! wee!!!

us.. trying to be cute.. love her alot...

haha.. so yah.. thats all for now.. haha... update later iight!!

* LOVE all!!! *
~tata~

empty...

2006-08-16T14:24:00.000+08:00

i dont really know wat else to feel... what else to do... what else to say...

i tried... i really do...

but nearly each day are end with anger... sadness... confusion...

i cant do this anymore.. i cant... im feeling senseless... i dont know which direction to head to.. which light to follow.. which feeling to feel...

maybe i ask too much... maybe i am just no good in this...

maybe one day... one day things will be better...

maybe...

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On the other hand.. alot had been happening.. Yvonne(our dearest classmate) bdae where we celebrate by eating steamboat at marina... lala's niece malay ceremony where the gang meet again... meeting dbabes again... my arts app's skit which i would say it been done really well.. my class presentations.. projects submission... lab test...its been bz.. hakz... haiz..

i will update more wif pics and details...IF i have time..

hakz~

* i feel empty *
~tata~

3 mths... <3

2006-08-05T11:55:00.000+08:00

1st of all...

~HAPPY 3 MTHS ANNI DEAR!!!~

love you alot... :)

haha... so yeah... another month have passed so fast.. hakz.. and here we are.. 3mths... even though it seems short.. SO MUCH had happened... hakz... and it was great to be wif u.. i really have fun and enjoy the time we spend... and thanx dear... love you...

on the other hand.. even though today we cant go out.. i hope u will enjoy urself and have a great time k... bluek.. kambing.. haha...

us:

* loove *
~tata~

thanx...

2006-07-29T00:13:00.000+08:00

this week is really a hectic week.. damn rushing./... 3 projects and 1 presentation... quite stress... alot had been happening... haha... BUT... i think that my weekdays are ended off nicely... really...

1st of all.. i really love my dt freshies.. haha.. really great bunch of talented people.. and they are all caring too... i thanx u guys for caring bout me when im down and try to cheer me up.. lol.. like oliver, da hong, ferhan and eel and etc.. u guys really rawks.. i love all of u.. lol... dym.. haha

and.. i also love my long time known grp ... mato, priya, ash, mei li, victor and etc... i love u guys.. thanx oso.. u guys are great.. haha.. always make me laugh... hakz...

and.. i damn love my classmates!!!!! my classmates rawks like hell.. haha.. hell oso cannot rawk oredi.. haha.. evonne(both), my gay partner Kelvin,Jason, Da Hong, Chris and my 2 favourite mel and hanna and all.. basically i love all my classmates lar.. haha.. u guys even follow me to eat other place cos im sick and i dont eat the food at the usual place.. haha.. and u guys care when im sick.. thanx.. u guys are funnnnnn~

haha.. i of course love all my close frens.. haha.. KAY!!! somemore gave me herbal tea to drink cos of my cough.. also cook for us... wah.. really love u sia.. haha.. great ah.. and my bros and sis... Mas, Raz, alia, rainbow(exception ah u.. pity u ler... haha! juz kidd.. stupid bendan! haha.. ),
magg, yaz, harbi and etc.. haha.. i really thanx u all for being there always.. thanx...

and of course i LOVE MY family!! thats goes without saying.. lol.. a place where i always look forward to be.. haha.. (wah.. yaaaaaaa rrrite.. hakz! juz kidd)

and lastly... i love her.. a girl who suddenly comes in my life and shine my heart.. a person who makes me fall in love.. who makes me feel sad, happy, hurt, love.. who is there for me.. who shares my feeling... i love her.. thanx u.. i promise i wont say that again.. really.. if not u can punish me k.. love u...

haha.. so yah.. actually got lots of people i love!! haha.. but cant be going on and on mah.. so for those i didnt mention.. sorry ah.. haha.. but i love u guys.. yay~ hakz.. so yah..

looking forward to the weekends and next week... weeeeeeeee~

oh.. look at the time.. 12.22am.. its oredi weekend.. so.. nothing to look forward ah.. hakz... oredi here mah.. hakz...

ok ok.. sorry if its lame..

crap~

haha.. bluek~!

*loving all of u.. esp U.. always... thanx*
~tata~

shutting...

2006-07-19T11:30:00.000+08:00

i dont know whats these feelings...

but i feels as if its going to shut and just slip away.. leaving the person emotionless...

it feels... weird

hmm

on the other hand.. this will be a short entry.. later i write longer entry...

been spending these days in schools... always meet up wif raz... zat too.. raoo too.. and all.. my classmates are more tighter now.. its been fun.. so many plans.. i love them to bits.. wif asc organisation set up.. and kgc organisation.. im the only one in kgc wif kelvin becos we are gay partner (yaa rite)... hmm.. mom is back too.. ah... i miss some people... aiyah.. luckily u guys are there everytime... i dunno..

maybe i should just act in the "Lost" tv serials..

yaa rite...

*weird*
~tata~

ps. i just notice.. this is the 1st time my post is without a "haha" or "hehe".. funny..

period.

life of Altar Boys... haakzz...

2006-07-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

elloz kukuz out there... how are ur miserable life been doing??? hehe.. ;p

well.. basically.. its been a while since i last update my blog.. omg.. u can see dust forming up oredi... haaa.... tenene btol.. haha...

so wats happening???

well... well.. well.. nothing much actually.. haha.. Monday i went to yaz's MediaBiz studio for this recording for an "interview" kinda thingy.. its sooo damn cool ah!! chinonek btoL! its like so cold and comfy.. and then there's flood light everywhere and there's cameras that tv shotting always use one.. den got stage and etc.. wahhhh... soo cool sia.. i loike the place very the much.. lol.. so yeah~ wth.. haha... den we go to tampines polyclinic to get MC... haha.. stupid poly.. haha.. wait quite long ler.. hakz... den went to skool.. met dearie at 6pm.. me, dearie, raz, yaz and alia went to KFC to eat.. haha.. everyone got the promotional meal and den.. off we.. heading for Safra to send dear to her bus stop.. haha.. got minor hiccups on the way but i guess it end quite fast rite dear.. ahakz.... den me, ferhan, yaz and raz went to raz's crib to slack and kick some ass.. lol.. tenene.. me and ferhan lost to them by 1!!!! argh!! haha..

nabeh pop pop...

den today.. tuesday.. went to skool for test... write some stupid letter of complain for CMSK2 den went off to meet RaoooooooOOO.. haha.. den i accompany the ladies to eat at Design canteen.. haha.. nabeh pop pop.. haaaa.. den me and raooo go watch movie at library.. "Life of the Altar Boys".. it was damn frigging cool and simple sia.. haha.. after dat.. met dearie and den we go eat at Design canteen. haaaaa... after dat... we went to the "park" between the engine's canteen to slack.. haha.. enjoy my time wif her.. hakz... den dearie went to class and
i went to my tutorial.. heee...

Arts app.. very the fun and enjoyable.. i now always looking forward to arts app... haha.. cos now its Drama session!! weee~ haha.. so yah.. after dat.. met dearie for awhile and we have ice cream in Jupiter cafe.. haha.. den.......... Rao treat me ice cream oso!! haha! thanx raoo.. sayanggg dier.. hehe.. ;p haha... den dear went home and i went to Samba.. haha.. it was cool.. hakz.. quite tired.. haaa.. den after dat went home( after forcing Izzat and Fadi to walk and wait wif me at the 21 bus stop.. hehe).. thanx u all!! haha..

well.. so yah.. hakz.. dats all for now.. i owe dear 2 paragraph on her.. later k dear.. haha.. syg dier.. haha.. and i miss MOM!!!! arghhhH!!! haha.. and... dear is upset rite now.. i know she got some problem.. dear... dont worry k.. everything will be fine.. i know u and mama will be orite.. k... love you dear.. hakz..

tenene.. haaa

*goodnite to the world*
~tata~

a horrible truth...

2006-07-08T11:02:00.000+08:00

yes!!! i found out a HORIBBLE TRUTH!!!

my mom coming back.....

NEXT WEEK!!!!!

ahhh!!!! and wat???? i left wif figging 5 bucks in my wallet cos all the money mom left hav finished... gone.. poof!! and i tot mom said she be back in 1 month.. which is this week.. wahhhhhhh~

luckily.. 4th sis is here and mom ask her to give 30 bucks for next week.. *sobsob* thanx to sis... haaaa~ and den i asked mom for my atm card ah~ aiyoooh... lucky....

going out soon... bye!

*i miss mom!!!!!!*
~tata~

ahhhhhhh~

2006-07-07T23:27:00.000+08:00

hellozz... well... how r u all... lol..

anyway.. today had been a... rollercoaster day~ lol.. i went to school 40 min late for DSAG... lab.. haha.. so... Mr One-Side-Smile(cos he had this charming one side smile), mr Ong.. who aged arnd 50 years old i guess... excuse me and mark me presence cos of my excuse.. lol.. Kelvin was like nabei.. haha.. he talk c*ck lar.. haha... keep backing me up.. haha.. thanx bro.. hakz.. and i was sick this morning.. fever.. haha..

den... go have lunch wif imah at itas.. den... meet up wif raz, harbi, rao, izzat and etc.. haha.... fun ah.. hakz.. den go watch Last Samurai.. haha.. woohooo.. very inspiring.. haaaa... den.. go DramaTec.. haha.. very fun and fulfiling.. haha.. great.. hakz... played some games and characterisation... den magus luna.. haha.. den.. we go tecno after dat! haha.. great.. a heaty discussion after some time.. haha.. great.. hakz.. well.... now... im having a gastric pain.. havent eat! if i know i eat at tecno.. argH! hakz.. very damn painfulll... very very.. agghhhh~ PAIN!!!!!!!

me and priya.. yaz stuck behind...
a heaty discussion start.. hakz..

mas and ash..
us.. haha..

so yah.. hakz.. so basically.. yah// haha

well.. its been long since i left a side thought,, here it is...

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hmm.. how is it to be compare to other people?? hakz.. some people felt little.. some people felt happy.. some felt... numb.. However.. how is it that we can compare people wif people? i mean. obviously, everyone is not perfect.. and everyone have different views and personalities.. rite? hmm.. everyone have different looks, build, language, ways and life..

for me.. i dont know if comparing people is good.. i didnt take much of people and compare them to others.. cos i like people and see them the way they are.. maybe can state some differences and simmilarities.. but comparing.?? hmm.. i dunnoo.. lol.. i myself never compare people wif myself.. in leadership sense.. looks.. ways.. life... i always think im ok and good... and im contented wif myself.... lol.. BUT... if someone was to compare me.. i dunnoo.. it felt... funny>? hmm.. haha.. but still.. i wont.. and i meant this.. i WONT look down on myself and let myself being pulled down... hakz.. i love myself.. and i felt people should accept their life and love themself and people arnd them the way it is.. hakz..

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weelll.. thats the side thought after soo long.. haha.. so yah.. and one more thing..

~HAPPY BDAE MOK!!!!! LOVE YOU SIS!!!!~

haha.. so yah.. hakz.. weelll.. gtg now.. damn pain ah... argH~!@@#KPO!#)_U)!)_R!+_)!#I!+__(+_!)

haha... cya!

*welllllll*
~tata~

<3

2006-07-07T00:58:00.000+08:00

haha.. hello peepz of the world.. how are u all doing???? lol...

here i am.. updating my nearly-dusty-bloggy due to Her persistance.. lol.. juz kidd.. haha.. yay~

well... yesterday ... well.. more likely on 5th of July 2007.. was our 2nd months anni.. haha.. well.. the day started out as planned.. me going lab.. den we met at library at 4pm.. lol.. me and dear joined by raz and lia.. haha.. wooooooooOOOOO~ haha.. well.. 1stly in schoool.. we got our "present" from the bottle vending machine... lol.. we got 2 coke for the price of one! haha.. wth... den.. we go to our destination.. haha.. it was great.. haha.. enjoy the moment and day wif her and my our sibling.. lol..(raz and lia lar.. haha)... ESPECIALLY wif her lar.. haha.. well.. spend a great time.. haha.. we as usual.. very noisy... den.. we took the most "FUN" ferris wheel ever in out entire life that really "MAKE OUR DAY!"! haha!! damn lar.. haha.. but nvm.. we planned to go somewhere else, the 4 of us, next time lar.... lol.. so yah.. haha.. den send her home.. hakz.. fun fun ah.. haha.. wooooooooo~ and yay~ i got a card and strawberry chocolate from dearie~ lol.. thanx dear! haha... swittttttttt............................ hakz.. <3 her

in the bus... only my mouth can be seen.. haha

couple of the day.. lol.. weeeeeee~ haha... my face senget again.. hakz..

us.. haha.. love her alot~

a walk to remember.. lol.. yaaaaaaaaa.. haha~

today... was great.. haha... well.. started off in the morning agitated due to the rain and WIND!.. which mess my hair abit.. haha.. but after dat.. afternoon met her and we had lunch and den we go to tampines library to chill.. haha.. den she went home.. i went home and sooo tired, so i slept till 8.15pm.. haha.. lovely day today.. haha..

so... tmr drama.. haaaa.. haha.. dunno lar.. haha.. looking forward to..... seeing her.. haha.. and.. MY MOM COMING BACK IN A FEW DAYS!!!! yay~ haha.. miss her alot!! haha.. yayyy.. and see wat she brought from Sydney.. haha.. 1month seem quite fast sia.. haha.. yay~

so yah.. anyway.. to dance ensemble.. great agm! lol.. keep it up~

and.. the girl who make me smile always.. lol~

*love my life...*
~tata~

time flew by....

2006-07-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

dearest....

HAPPY 2 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!

i love u loaddssssss.......

it had been a rollercoaster ride this 2 months... fun... enjoy.. thrilling.. down... up... and etc...
and best of all.. its wif u
=)

*time just flew like that wif u by my side*
~tata~

ps. happy 5 months anniversary to my bro mag and sis mas.. lol... so happy together always~ haha

hehe~

2006-07-02T01:56:00.000+08:00

alamak/// i do a quiz here.. but the previous one is my couz's one.. i put in wrongly.. wth~.. haha... is actually a scorpio~

and i know that dearie is a scorpion... hehe.... and we got ALOT.. and i mean ALOT of similarities.. haha she kpo ah... heh~

on the other hand.. PORTUGAL ARE IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!! both team GERMANY and PORTUGAL are IN!!!!! my only concern now is BRAZIL!!!! WEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

*loving her always*
~tata~

=>

2006-06-28T23:40:00.000+08:00

all these makes me realise one thing...

it makes me want to have u more... lol

hmm.. so yah.. im sorry for the 10 min thingy.. and yes.. we kinda settled it... hakz.. haiz... watever it is.. im sorry for my part... and thanx for ur sweet post... haiz...

i dunoo how things will go on in the future...

but i know that i always will need u... :)

thanx

* watever it is... pls know that i always l*ve u...*
~tata~

the Boy...

2006-06-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

elloz... hmm..

so.. hows the world doing out there??? haaa...

i heard sadness and disappointment and all blues feeling is in the air today.. lol... hmmmm

so yah... there's a story lar about a boy(someone i know) that i get to know that i wanna share.. haha... so here lar.. hakz..

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It was a day before school reopen. The boy was excited as he went to sleep because he got an appointment the next day at a certain time. Before he went to sleep, he tried to match some clothes to look "nice" for the date. So, feeling happy with the clothes he put in together, he went to sleep...

On the next day, he reached school just in time for his lesson. He got gastric pain but he just bear with the pain. So, after hours of learning and writing, it was finally lunch time. So he went to lunch with his friends. He bought some light food because of the date later, so he do not want to be too full. After that, he got lessons and at some times of the day, he got frequent headache which he tired to shake away. And to top it all, he was quite stress with the school work and etc. However, he keep looking at the time as he was looking forward to his date. He thought that maybe he could end his day nice and sweet.

So at the time he was supposed to meet the gerl, he waited excitedly with his friend. However, after waiting for 15 minutes, the girl still doesn't appear and he got to meet his captain for a while to discuss some stuff. So, thinking that she understand, he rushed off to meet his captain for awhile. When he reached the office, he had to wait for awhile as his captain was on the meeting. So he keep worrying whether she will wait there or she will just walked off. After he done with his discussion, he quickly went to the place before and he saw the girl from far.

At first, he was sooooooooo happy that the girl was wearing the exact same color as him. As he approached near, he was taken aback when he was rudely shouted at. He didn't know what went wrong because he just arrived. And then, things get worse. She wanted to leave and this further puzzled the boy. So he agreed because it is useless for him to say anything. So, when he got up to send her, he saw his friend coming towards him to say something. And he saw another friend walking toward another direction due to a problem. So, he went to his 1st friend and say hi, then he went to his 2nd friend to ask him what happened. As he turned around, he saw the girl walked off, leaving him there. The girl stared at him and just looked away, which furthered worsened the situation.......

And the boy started off with " FUCK LAR................................................(u know what come next) "

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haha.. im like laughing abit lar when i heard about this.. haiz.. i dunnoo.. its soooooo... mixed up. haha.. because the boy told me that he didnt meet his captain for partying... he was looking forward to the day.. he wanted to have a nice ending for the day... he even prepared clothes.. hmm... hah~

hmm.. maybe... i dunnooo.. haizzz.... welll.... hakz.. this one is another one lar.. but not anything that suppose to bother u commoners.. hakz...

---------" hmm.. u keep asking me what i like about you.. you know why i didnt reply?? Not because i dont love you or anything like that.. because i have been trying to safe it for the MOMENT(if it comes)... and u know that.. BUT u still want to know.... haiz...

The reason.. was simply because to me, u are beautiful.. nice.. fun... lovable.. cute... manje... outgoing... and loud.. Funny BUT this is wat i like best in a girl.. and u came.. with all that.. i like it.. and i fall for u.. i know that u have some "not- nice-side" but i still like u.. i like u the way u are.. cos u are everything u are to me.. and u are special.. u are lovable.. but until when... i dunoo.. "-------------

hahhhh... haha.. so yah.. haiz.. i guess that it is not gonna be for special moments anymore.. haiz.. haha... becos.. becos.. becos... hakz.. i dunnoooo.. heh~ hmm... haha.. haiz.. dunnoo lar.. so many things to ponder on.. haiz.. im having headache oso.. hakz (like the story seh.. haha)... and.. im becoming siao.. hakz.. haiz...

well.. maybe.. as Kay said... "somethings are just not explainable.. somethings are just there because it is special.."

i guess u should head for this advise.. but i guess not.. hakz..~

well.... so much for today.. haiz.. i dunoooo.. i really dont.................................................

* the world is just .............. *
~tata~

ps. Rao.. if u reading this... please please go to the marching thing wif me.. i feel so stress up and down.. i need some break.. haiz... thanxxx....

Seven 11.. heh~

2006-06-23T11:35:00.000+08:00

haiyoh.. i wasss given this by my bro Yazid.. bluek.. hakz.. lazy sia.. but just do lar.. haha...

7 Random Things About Me:
1) i love watching chinese movie (especially the one where got power and can fly kinda thing)
2) i always thought that i have superpowers (until now.. hehe.. i tot maybe one day i can fly. hakz!)
3) i love to look at myself in mirror ( -_-")
4) i just into HAIRSTYLING! ( i cant stand not styling hairs and see bad hairstyles!!! )
5) i only HATE 1 person in this world
6) i love to joke around
7) i love everyone arnd me especially dearieee!! hakz!

7 Things That Scare Me:
1) Girls who are TOOO friendly ( especially strangers who suddenly go frenly wif mein public!!)
2) Failures... i cant stand failing in something i do.
3) to not able to dance one day!!!!!!!! ( NOOO!!!)
4) Plane crash!! (EVERYTIME on plane.. i will be nervous like hell.. hehe)
5) losing my fun side
6) people messing my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7) losing all the people whom i love!

7 Random Music At The Moment:
1) Im here without you - 3 doors down
2) For you i'll make a song - ME!
3) Stay - StripedLives
4) you and me - Lifehouse
5) Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard
6) Jesus of Subarbia - Greenday
7) Radio - Alkaline Trio

7 Things I Like Most:
1) Laugh!
2) Dancing
3) Guitar
4) Fashions
5) Movies!
6) Beach
7) deariee! hakz

7 Things I Often Say:
1) "otak u lar"
2) "oit!"
3) " haha! siak je"
4) " bum pak bum pak dom....." (im beatboxing lar.. haha)
5) " relax beb..."
6) " anything.."
7) "nabeh pop pop!!" (hehe.. its nabeh only but i add pop pop behind to make it sound nicer..heh)

7 People To Do This: (cannot more ah? hakz.. juz kidd)
1) Raodah
2) Fadillah
3) Shikin
4) Magg
5) Mastura
6) Pika
7) Kay

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haha.. so yah. hakz! must do ah!! bluek~

haha.. wanna put dearie but she done oredi mah.. so no need. lol.. haiz.. hakz.. feeling lethargic now.. hakz.. later meeting my couz to go prayer den go Raooooo's house for movie marathon den at nite got soccer at Changi.. haha.. yay~

so.. wednesday.. we gone to iceskating.. fuiyooh.. haha.. fun ah.. hakz.. i and raooo ah.. hakz.. we are like doing stunts and jumping here and there.. haha! yaaa rrite.. hakz.. no lar.. everyone keep falling and its funny sia.. we play chooo choo train and im always leading everyone.. so.. i always make a sharp turn after a while and the people behind keep falling! wahaha!! sometimes i even fall myself cos i stumbled..wahaha~ wth..

for more info go (http://raaaoooo.livejournal.com/) .. haha!

den.. yesterday thursday went to skool to meet dearie.. haha.. we go eat at design canteen den we go Marina Bay.. wahaha! wth,... the place to go in is quite far.. haha.. but still.. i enjoy my time.. hakz.. sweet and fun.. haha.. den send her home and got back home arnd 10+pm.. haha.. den chat at nite.. haha.. bluek~

so yah.. dats all for now.. im gonna get ready... wheeeeeeeeeee~

* life is beautiful *
~tata~

THE week

2006-06-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

well.. halloz everyone~

hakz.. im feeling moodless rite now.. haiyah~ hakz

well.. yesterday met the folkers session.. hakz.. at first thought, lie detactors and integorattion came into the picture.. lol.. but i guess wrong.. it was fun.. hakz.. wanna know the details ask me lar k.. i dont know how to blog about it. heh~

and today.. reached school arnd 10.30am.. den after doing the logistic stuff and etc.. go eat wif priya, mas, mato and harbi and victor.. den... got main comm meeting.. so yeah~ after dat.. hakz.. went to watch "Nang Nak"(a thai movie) in library wif mas and harbi.. mato went to gym ( to build up his muscels.. hehe) and priya went off to meet someone.. hakz.. mas was gross at a moment of the movie and etc.. but.. hakz.. the movie is about eternal love.. the woman loyalty and faithfulness.. the love for the man.. even death cant stop her.. haiz.. but i was like "if this really happen.. i would be happy" to mas.. lol..! ahh.. dunnooo lar.. its too good i guess.. heh~ but ok lar.. hakz.. i like the story... haha

den met Dbabes and samba!!!! haiz.. i miss them! hakz.. rao, fad, kin, zad, ferhan, raz and all the people! lol.. its soo fun to be arnd them.. hakz.. raodah keep wanting piggy back.. lol.. wth... hakz.. so yah.. damn funny lar.. hakz.. den go eat tecno.. Damien(i tink this is the spelling) treat us.. thanx to him =) hakz!

and at last.. now is Wendesday.. last day for me to enjoyyyy much...... im gonna do my project on thursday and friday i hope.. lol.. but ok lar.. hmm.. so going ice skating.. asked raz for 2 pair of gloves but i guess now need 1 only.. hmm.. so yah~ haiz.. looking forward to spend a day but i guess its ok den... haiiiiizzzzzzzzzz.. hakz.. quite sleepy rite now.. haiyoh.. have to meet that Raooooo at 11am tmr wif others.. hakz.. cannnn lar.. hah~ haiyoh..

i dunno why im feeling all mixed up rite now.. its like... cant be explain so dont bother asking me to explain.. im feeling... jumbled-up.. hakz..!

* :/ *
~tata~

~im back~

2006-06-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

Hellozzz haha.......

im back..

likeeeeeeee FINALLY... haiyah.. haha

so..its been a great week.. i enjoyed myself in KL wif my sisters and sis's fiance.. hakz.. and my grandma.. hakz!

BUT... i miss everyone here!!!!!! argh! haha.. i miss my Dbabes(raooo, shikin, zad, fad, raz,harb n etc) .. i miss My DramaTec Freshies.. i miss my Main Committeeee.. i miss my gang.. i miss Kay.. miss Halimah.. miss Nad and Mel crappiness.. reallllyy miss Mato and ash and hafeez and (incoincidently) Priya.. haha! I miss Mastura.. miss my dear adik Pika.. miss my bros yaz, raz and harbi.. miss the one and only Kay.. miss Freshies(everyone!!).. miss adik.. miss bros.. miss my gang.. miss priya, ash, mato, hafeez.. miss halimah.. miss my classmates.. miss Dbabes.. miss ferhan.. miss Lewis.. miss...

kk FINE FINE!!!!!!!!!

enough wif the missing.. lol.. im like repeating.. haha.. ~crazy~ basically u all know lar eh dat i miss everyone in Singapore..

and oso.. I MISS DEARIE!!!!

haha...

phew~ im sooo glad im back in Singapore.. hakz!

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On the other hand.. Lots of thing had been happening ah when im gone..

hakz.. Dbabes.. thanx for missing me.. haha.. must hold another outings ah! hakz.. weeeeeeee~ and siak raodah.. haha.. u post our conversations!!!! argH! haha.. bluek~ lotssss craps.. haha..

dear.. haha.. i miss u too.. hakz.. i dunnoo how to describe it oredi.. u know i know.. haha.. bluek~

and some people should just get their own life.. especially YOU asshole.. yes you.. you cost sssoooooo much damn trouble wif everyone.. u keep talking about people behind their back.. hakz.. u think u are sooo good??? wahaha! u cant even manage urself so fuck off.. haha.. yes.. this post is just for u.. cos i think everyone had enough of u lar k.. people who dont know u think u are fine.. but hey.. talk about the devil behind the mask.. hakz.. u are worse than that.. definitely.. weeeee~ and may u have ur own life in the future.. hakz.. stop acting lar.. u have been acting all the while while u are breathing... stop acting and look at the reality.. and may u find hope in it to forgive urself cos u need it.. heh..

hakz.. *dat post is just for someone who Feeling Feeling* haha.. so if u think u feel it.. im NOT sorry.. haha.. dont worry.. its not who u think it is.. wahaha! ... it is not wat EVERYONE thought it is anyway... heh =)

and to my best fren.. relax.. i dont wan u to leave.. no one wants u to leave.. please learnt to let go and move on.. im sure the future will have more things for u.. hakz.. i know its difficult for u but trust me.. we are here k.. and think positive always!! hakz!!

and to my another best fren... u are fine without people u dont need.. u youself have gone tru soo much and now.. its time to sit back, enjoy and have fun.. haha.. good luck wif tmr! bluek!! haha...

and.. to my DT current members... Thanx.. im sorry for not being there but i cant and i know u guys understand it.. thank you everyone for making the production a succeesss.. i heard it was really good.. hakz.. miracles doo happen.. and i believe in u all.. thanx.. i really love u guys.. u guys rawks.. haha!~

and to my seniors.. thanx for making the production the way it is.. thanx nad for making it the way u vision it will be.. halimah.. im really gonna miss u u 60s gerl.. i feel like im the older brother to you, not the other way round.. lol.. u are fun.. and mel.. thanx for helping me to tune up the song ( =p ) and thanx for the production.. kin too.. thanx for helping to make it happen.. haiz.. thanx.. one year had pass soo fast.. i hope u guys had a great future ahead.. and Kay.. haha.. definitely will see u often in drama.. haha.. so.. hakz! no goodbye speech to you ah! haha.. bluekkk.. haha

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k den.. thats my post..

love ya all..!

*love my life.. hakz*
~tata~

Missing............

2006-06-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

elloz everyone...

*and hear the crowd cheering and the gerls fainting and the dog howling and the... watever that make noise! hakz*

hear i am... where>? in the hotel... where?? at KL... where??? malaysia lar deng.. heh

gosh.. im like missing Singapore and my fwens.. wooosh... yah.. and miss sweety alots... hakz... so tired.. i wonder how the main production rehearsals are doing... hopefully everything is fine.. haiz.. and yes.. i know everyone miss me alot! *and kena smack by everyone.. lol*

haiz.. k den... just thought of updating.. haiz.. darn.. another 4 days here?? hmm/.. hopefully time will go abit faster... haaaaaaizz.. k den..!!

gtg now!!!

*and the crowd keep pulling on my legs.. body... shirts.. underwear... to keep me from going off..*

wahaha! yaaaaaaaaaaaaa rrrrite~ -_-

* i miss my fwens and sweety alotssss*
~tata~
<3 u kambing.. heh~

boohooo~

2006-06-11T00:20:00.000+08:00

lol.. hello peepz out there who are looking rather not cute but ugly. heh.... juz kidd..

weeee~ test over!!! finally can rest.. lol.. 3/4 of my paper was quite easy/ok.. the DSAG.. CAN DIE ah.. difficult to the max.. until Max oso not difficult oredi.. hehe ;P

Dont mind me.. im siao..

haiz.. bean doing lots of stuff these past few days.. dramatec especially.. have to prepare for next week main production.. woohoo~. haha.. im quite worried now but its ok.. i know it will turn out fine.. hakz..

hmm.. whole day today drama.. my members were fun as usual.. hakz.. manage to occupy each other time every single minute.. den.. me and sweety relax for a while after a day of hard work.. hakz.. she cried!!!! ^_^v ... not that it was good but i know she loveee me.. hakz.. den after dat.. had to go home earlier abit to pack up my stuff.. hakz.. send her home under her void deck.. haiz.. sweetie gave me something.. haha.. thankz dear.. really love it and love you too.. hakz..

den.. i went home quickly taking cab from woodland.. and.. pack my stuff.. boohoo~~ in 7 hrs time.. bye singapore hello KL.. lol.. haiz.. i will really miss all the fun for main production next week.. break a leg guys(not literally ah.. hakz!)! i love you guys,!!!! wish that i could stay but yah.. hakz.. have to go for a week.. so.. love you all once again!!!!!!!!!! Dont be too stress and enjoy!!!

and.. i will miss sweety.. i cant poke her b*b** for a week.. hakz.. nobody to laugh and merajok to.. haha.. will miss u alot sweety.. love you very much!! i be back k.. love ya kambing.......................................... haha...

=( will miss everyone!!! She... them.. haiz..

*i be away!!! love yA!*
~tata~

u and me...

2006-06-03T01:57:00.000+08:00

i love u...

~tata~

ps. miss u loads...

When everything just sucks....

2006-06-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

you turn to your brothers!!! hakz...

fuck lar.. watever.. hakz.. wat a bad day today.. really down... haiz..

k.. im feeling fuck up rite now.. but.. i try to make this entry as light hearted as possible.. k.. even put some pics for some bright feeling.....

eat lunch wif YAZID and FERHAN... suppose to eat wif some other people but some other people eat oredi so.. watever.. met MAGG at the bridge before we go eat at Kfc.. hakz.. magg was nearly taken in by our force of didnt go prayer but he walked in the rite path of the force.. -_-" so yah.. heh.. go mushroom for awhile.. den.. on the way to itas canteen.. saw them going somewhere i dunno.. so yah.. den.. we went to itas canteen.. hmm... dat time didnt feel orite oredi.. so yah.. just talked arnd wif ferhan and jyuneen and yaz cos only got us at that table.. and another table got the entertainment and all oredi.. so yah... hmm.. den.. den saw the sweetest couple duo.. lol.. mas and magg.. at the canteen again.. so yah.. sat arnd wif them.. haiz.. sweet lar my bro and sis.. hakz.. they really are very close and always are together.. hakz.. i see them oso i felt happy for them.. funny.. hakz.. and we took some pics.. heh~

den.. after dat.. go watch movie.. raz stayed behind wif the others... we(jyuneen, me, lewis, yaz and ferhan) cant decide which movie to watch so we go by vote.. lol.. i won! and we watched... Armageddon.. haha.. fuck.. i cried 4 times.. cos i was feeling depress and sucky.. and.. + the movie.. haiz.. if only such stories exist.. sacrifice for love one.. and den a romantic and sweet couple.. hmm.. wth lar.. so yah.. den.. went to main production.. i was late lar.. sorry kay.. hakz.. and so.. just sat and sing along wif priya, ash, mato and elias.. hakz.. ash make this song that is explicit.. hakz.. lighten up some of my feeling abit.. but then it came again.. den went back.. mas go meet mag.. hakz.. dunno lar them both.. so inseparatable... before skool see them together.. during skool see them together.. and oso after school.. lol.. together!! wth.. haha.. here some pics for today.. see lar...

the couple.. haha...

me and them.. hakz.. yah yah.. im like extra.. wif no one mah.. so yah lar..

haha.. we making faces... without planning.. hakz

me and yaz! after so long we never take pics together.. finally.. haha..

so yah.. went home after dat.. too exchausted ah... hmmm.. yah.... so dats for today... watever..

* im down wif flu.. but.. so wat...*
~tata~

=)

2006-05-31T00:56:00.000+08:00

You make me feel me..

You make me feel loved...

You make me feel high....

im glad that i met u..

love ya... =)

*sorry eh dear just now... hakz..*
~tata~

ps. : dear is the most beautiful, cute, lovely and kind gerl i ever met.... and i love her!!!

psps. : She forced me to say that ah...

pspspsps... : just kidd.. love her very much!! ^_^v and yes.. i will sleep before 2.30am k dear... glad to have u there.. hakz...

happy times

2006-05-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

=)

had a great time for quite a while now.. lol.. after my bad luck day.. wow... everything turn out good... it was wonderful.. lol

so yah.. received CCA award.. lol.. and on that day performed samba.. haha.. it was a hit.. great day... had fun wif dbabes and the rest of the samba people.. wahaha!! we even played a trick game ah.. and... Queen and mak long was the last 2 contestants.. haha.. but mak long got it sooner and Queen was the SLOWEST!!! wahaha!!!! she took one whole day to get the trick rite! wahaha... had a great funtastic time wif them.. lol..

hmm............ den on friday.. haha.. CCN day.. we performed quite ok.. i hate the environment though.. haha.. then my guitar sound muffled cos of the gadget.. i havent even try that gadget yet and so.. i kinda just choose any effect.. lol.. so yah.. but ok lar.. haha.. gave dear flowers (which i was searching for the WHOLE school..) and then we go dancing.. lol.. funny ah.. the dancefloor was kinda loose.. so.. like not much mood to dance.. haha.. so yah.. den got coregroup.. and more fun lar basically.. haha..

den on saturday.. our dt training day.. it was a blast! wahaha.. had great fun wif the new members.. haha.. they are all sporting man.. and i meant ALL.. haha.. so fun.. i was slapped by victor! wahaha!!! it was a short scne actually that we act out for the new members.. me, victor and kay.. wahaha.. we doing a scene from devdas.. i KNEW that a slapped was coming but i forget about it.. wahaha!! and i actually flew wif my cap another direction!!! ALL the feelings were numb when i hit the floor! wahaha!!! but ok lar.. at least we didnt break out of character.. after dat.. eat at tecno wif the freshies and us.. den.. me, dear and harbi go camp.. lol.. great time.. haha.. cannot descibe it.. ;p

and den on sunday.. whole day of resting wif harbi at home until 9+pm.. lol

Monday.. today.. haha.. was schooling from 9am-6pm as usual.. had DBSY lab test which were quite easy.. haha.. den.. whole day study.. hakz.. met dear again for lunch.. and.. arnd 6pm.. she wend home.. and yes.. i met her parents and her older sister and her younger bro.. lol.. cos they fetched her in a car.. so yah.. haha.. paiseh seh.. but ok lar.. haha.. fun.. hakz... den after dat,, met my 4th sis and her fiance in tampines mall.. and............ i got a new hp oredi!!!! yay!!! at last!!! im contactable!!!! wooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! haha... so yah.. same number ah!! haha... weee~

thanx dear mom and sis for buying it!!! especially mom!! haha.. yayness!~

so yah.. haha.. it had been really great so far.. haiz.. so just hope it will stay like dis.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~!

*i feel sooo... love*
~tata~

damn damn damn...

2006-05-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

k.. today..

LET ME TALK ABOUT TODAY! aRGH!!!!

k...i was having a damn bad luck today..

1st of all... my bag zip spoilt... so i changed bag..

2nd... i nearly get knocked down by a cab.. stupid freaking cibai damn asshole cab driver drove past me when it is the green man.. and i stop just in time and swear at the taxi driver..

3rd... when i reach skool...i lost my hp... weeeeeee~! fuck u! haiz.. yah.. and i was like depressed for the whole 2 hrs of lab and nearly cry ah.. haiz.. so many contacts.. like 300+ and den i got like 1++ photos and memories dat could never be taken again.. haiz... so yah

4th,,, my wallet abit torn cos i accidentally pull it.. argh!!!

today was honestly bad.. luckily DBABES was there to cheer me up.. its cool.. hakz.. i really dislike today very much.. haiz.. thanx dbabes.. hakz.. at least wif u all i feel more comfortable and release my stress.. hakz..

and fuck lar.. i hate people who so arrogant and wanna threaten people or things.. fuck.. haha.. its nothing to do wif anything.. me nor my bros nor my drama peepz.. but heard so many things ah.. haha.. funny ah.. *just ponders lar.. cos me and my fren just now talk about something that happened in the past.. about someone trying to be big and etc ar..* haha.. funny ah.. i meant.. other people shouldnt judge people just if they look "small" or "relax" or smiling.. lol.. like some people i know for example(include me lar).. they love to laugh and make jokes.. but.. never mess up with them if u dont know them well.. cos they might just be more fearful than u can imagine.. hakz.. their looks and attics does not match their ways and style.. meaning for example: i can look fun and love to joke but once someone try.. it will be unimaginable.. lol... so yah.. something like dat ah.. haha... i heard stories alot from my frens that i mixed arnd.. people like drug addicts, gang, lost person (like hanyut) and even people up to 50 years old's and still very wild.. lol.. they are fun people actually! haha.. fun to hang wif and joke arnd.. haha..

so yah lar.. bad day and a point to ponders.. shit shit shit.. but just now my bro magg said that there was a person who lost my hp and return it to safra... but dunno if true or not ah.. so yah.. haha.. so.. tmr try to see how.. shit!!! haiz.. but just now told my mom oredi.. and asked her for a new hp.. hehe.. so yah lar.. haiyoh! dunno lar! if have tmr.. den see how... SHIT! hakz..

ps. sorry for the many "shit" and vulgarities.. haiz..

*hopefully tmr will be better for me*
~tata~

ARGH!!!!!

2006-05-24T14:03:00.000+08:00

I LOST MY BLOODY DAMN HP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!

SHIT LAR!!!

!#!II()!$*UUI_Y!R()YPO!()Y#)_*$!($$)^!_UOP!&)RY!(#U!&$)_!$HU(P!^$(P!#Y)_YE$!OPR$Y!Y$!)U$!OY!($&E!)U$&)_U$$&!{$U)_$U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*argh!*
~tata ur head!~

a loong post.. heh~

2006-05-24T11:45:00.000+08:00

helllooooo my fellow countrymen...

*and the crowd goes "update... update!!*

lol...

Well, here i am to give u all updates on my fruitful yet bz life... *ya riteee... pui! heh~*

well.. on my last entry on Sunday.. it was during morning time when i updated my blog... In the afternoon, my whole family was in the house,, yeah.. haha.. there was a bdae celebration for my 2 nieces.. so yah.. hakz.. mom cook alot.. and i mean ALOT of delicious food~ weeeeeeee! haha.. so i ate till im full and den i ate again till im more full and i ate again till i burst.. heh~ no lar.. i ate and den i went out to go jamming... and Sunday's jamming was SUX wif a big S.U.X! i hate jamming when the instruments and all sux.. but ok lar.. quite messy.. haiyoh,,. haha... den i went to Clementi and met Fi.. we went to watch Kay's musical, "Man of Letter".. haha... with a few confusion on where is the bus stop and the place and all.. we are like idiots.. haha.. the musical was great.. love the setting.. love the musicals.. storyline is cliche but hey! thats wat make the musical interesting to watch ey~ haha.. so yah.. it is a great show overall.. lovely casting.. haha.. enjoyed the nite.. took alot of pics with fi but she havent give me yet.. *bluek~* haha.. so yah... reach home at 12.30am, eat and bath..and poof! i hit my bed and the next thing i knew.. i was in lalaland! haha..

Monday.. hmm.. let me see.. got wat ah? oh yah.. nothing much.. a whole day of studying.. aiyoh.. 9am-6pm monday's stressess.. haha.. i was sooo sleepy that i kept sleeping here and there.. lol..something happened but i guess its orite now.. lol.. so yah~~~~ haha.. den at nite.. raz brought his guitar and we just practise the song on classical guitar... den met adik and muna.. we went to eat... me, adek, muna, harbi and this freshie i forgot his name.. haha.. he oso fun ah.. haha.. cool guy.. heh~

den tuesday.. i was like no class ah.. cos suppose to have interview for cmsk.. but mine is next week... so yah.. i no need to come.. so i skip the 2 lectures.. and came to skool at 4pm.. i RODE to skool ah.. to see whether bus or bicycle faster.. taxi is of course the fastest.. haha.. so yah.. and guess who won.. bicycle!!! weee~ haha.. but the pain of shoulder and tiredness was unbearable.. (i brought my electric guitar to skool u see.. haha) so yah.. but fun and cooling ah.. hakz.. so during arts appreciation.. i was again kena present next week... wahlao! haha.. all next week.. aiiyohhh.. haha.. so yah.. imah and me and ruth took quite alot of pics in imah hp.. haha.. muhd refuse to take pics but imah managed to snap some pics of him~ tsk tsk tsk.. haha.. so yah.. den after dat.. met fi.. den eat at itas wif samba's people and kay... den went for samba awhile.. at 8pm.. went jamming.. haha.. and yesterday jamming was GREAT.. lol.... the sound is just nice.. and loud.. our ears are like tingling when every song ends.. haha.. and shit lar.. dunnooo why my fingers keep stucking during my solo part in black and white! argh~ have to get the solo properly~~~~~ ish.. haha.. so yah.. den rode home.. and shit.. i received a warning letter for art Appreciation.. my cds!! damn! i was like.. "ah???" cos i only skip ONCE! dammmmmmm lar.. wtf.. so yah.. hakz.. den i chat wif a few people and den accidentally sleep wif the pc on.. haha.. weeeee~

so gonna go skool soon.. i got lab at 2pm! haha.. den got rehearsals till 10pm! ahhhhhhhhh!!! i got award ceremony rehearsal oso today at 6+pm.. shit.. hakz..

and here is the pics that we took during arts app.. the pics for the man of letter cannot be post cos i dont have it! lol.. later lar.. haha... heres the pics...

me and imah making stupid faces...

ruth, me and imah

me with him sleeping on background.. lol...

me, ruth and imah.. and a hand.. lol

me and ruth.. ya i know i know.. its cute..*yaaa rite* hehe..

so yah.. all the pics.. and... now i gotta get ready for my skool.. so dats my update for now.. lol..

~hear the crowd cheering~ .. lol.. wth...

* ^_^v *
~tata~

stripey stripes!

2006-05-21T10:29:00.000+08:00

well...

StripedLives gonna play for CCN day on Friday, after we show them wat song we are playing on Tuesday.

Die~

i havent even practise yet with the band... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

ok ok.. relax.. tmr monday rite? can lar.. got nothing one.. so can can... and one other day is needed maybe.. hakz.. so yah... great!! haha.. even my solo part for black&white i forgot.. wahaha! yeah~

ok ok.. not that bad lar.. i tink we still can perform.. doink~

so sleepy.. eyes itching... aiyoh.. yesterday.. me and my couz was taking cam whoring..(yes.. we boys are pratically snapping all the time) ... haha.. den after dat, we went to cycling until 12.30 am.. we cycle up to changi beach and ate there.. then we cycle back.. lol... wat a nite.. haha...

so tnite.. gonna go to kay's musical.. Man of Letter.. haha.. cool.. hakz.. been planning to go actually.. haha.. so yah.. and Kay got stalker! wahaha!!!!!! sooooo sweeet.. ahakz.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

and funny thing.. hmm.. we are not anything that people think.. havent go to that extent yet.. hakz..

*my eyes! my eyes!!!*
~tata~

speechless

2006-05-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

yes.. dats wat im feeling rite now... my head hurts.. cos not enuf sleep and had a long and exchausting day today.. haha.. but yet... i love it,,, i love today.. =) *and u know why dear*

haha... so yah... in class.. im kinda searching the webs for my name.. i found out that if i type my name on yahoo search.. i find alot of links.. wahaha.. so yah.. interesting.. so yah.. den.. i hang out at design canteen doing something.. haha.. rehearsing more likely.. haha...

so yah.. den met her.. haha.. guess everything is fine now sweety? haha.. hope u enjoy today.. thanx => haha...

and.. so coregroup.. haha.. kinda had 45 new members!! with some cannot come!!! haha!! wahlao!! so im like sooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO nervous and kinda stress abit cos i cant be having coregroup wif everyone in studio 4.. a small space.. wahaha! so yah.. i laid out some info for them.. den we go to games.. i divided them into 2 groups.. and den we end today wif MTV video.. lol.. they are fun today.. very spontaneous.. haha.. well done guys... hopefully for weeks to come you guys will really stay committed and enjoyable.. haha.. so yah.. hakz... wif 40 people.. we can have 2 dramatec session but i dunnoo.. see how lar.. haha..

den go eat wif adek.. and harbi.. haha.. met raoooo and queen for awhile to share some goossips.. wahaha *u know i know we know lar eh makciks* haha.. so yah.. great day today.. hakz.. miss adek.. hakz..

it was great today.. i enjoy it very much.. next week.. aiyoh... tuesday i got main production, band rehearsing(most probably.. for CNN day in TP) and samba(i dunnoo 1st) .. lol.. cos im the honoury member mah.. hakz.. den wednesday got rehearsals all day long.. den thursday got cca award ceremony and oso performances.. den friday most probably got the band thingy performances for 30 min in tp.. dunno yet dat one and after dat dramatec coregroup.. then saturday got dramatec training session.. wahhh.. haha.. but i will have times lar for she oso.. lol.. so yah... hakz..

k den.. bye!!! *feeling up up up*

* ^_^ *
~tata~

im sorry...

2006-05-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today was quite.. a bad day... so tired.. less sleep.. so many codes.. and drama... for main production is hard ah.. haiz... and.. her..

imsorrythatididnottellyouthatiloveyouandiwillholdontoyouinmyheartdearlysayingimsorry

haiz... hope you understand it.. <3 u...

and... hear is a song ah.. emo emo abit.. lol... and this is wat im feeling rite now(more or less).. haiz.. no lyrics can be found.. so yah.. just type.. haiz..

Good Charlotte - Another perfect day

im holding on
waiting for your call
it simple but i can't explain this

im sinking down
feel like i could die
im falling off
i dont know why

I still believe it when you say
its another perfect day
another perfect day

I still believe it when u say
its another perfect day
another perfect day

so i might try
to leave it all behind
i know tmr not so bright now

im saying goodbye
cos nothing good can last
u wearing fade you nowhere fast

until the day
i dont know how
to keep it all inside
but i guess all that is like

I still believe it when you say
its another perfect day
another perfect day

I still believe it when u say
its another perfect day
another perfect day

until the day
i dont know why
i thought that it was real
but i guess its no big deal

I still believe it when you say
its another perfect day
another perfect day

I still believe it when u say
its another perfect day
another perfect day

*and i still believe it*
~tata~

im....... in.......

2006-05-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

wad? lol... i dunnooo wat im in.. wahaha

today...

a GREAT day...

no wait...

a LOVELY and FABULOUS day!!!

haha..

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Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.

Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.

You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!

People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

its kinda.. true.. i think... hehe

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

i know the DBABES will be laughing thier head off.. lol

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

more or less... lol

2006-05-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

feeling bored and down now.. im frowning in front of the pc ah.. damn...........................

k... watever lar fadz... *urgh*

hmm.. anyway.... school today was a bit... hasty... hmm... had lunch wif yazid just now.. so yah.. funny ah..

fadz: go sit ah

yaz: dont wan ah

fadz: why?

yaz: shy.. *wif a wide grin on the face*

lol.. typical yaz.. haha.. funny lar u bro.. heh... den after dat.. go to arts appreciation tutorial.. hand in my stupid work which look like a table cloth and ppl still like it.. -_-" muhammad did good sia.. he done a skeleton.. lol.. but most of them use the normal paper which is easy to do on.. mine are like.. hard ah.. cos its plastic paper.. haiyah.. so yah~'

den.. after joking around till 5.10pm.. we are dismissed.. meet up wif harbi.. suppose to meet yaz.. but i called him many times and he didnt answer.. so it mean only 1 thing... he is SLEEPING! wahaha! so yah... mag was wif mas and rugby gang in front of library... i go eat ice cream wif harbi at jupiter cafe.. and den makngah call (raoooo).. lol.. wif paklong(raz....) and we go to Design canteen. lol.. i am makcu.. wahaha... so yah.. back to just now.. after we eat and eat and eat.. we head down to studio 4.. i as usual... disturb ppl from salvo and MAG.. hmm.. so yah lar.. hakz.. had great time.. and yah..

den when on the way home.. some feelings creep up.. hmm.. so yah lar..

so bored.. here i am leaving off wif a poem that i found back from my old xanga... so yah:

When we first met,

We love each other like mad

We want to hold each other very tight,

And never put up a fight

But then our love started to flip,

U and i eventually had a fit

We didn't bother to talk,

So we took a different walk...

Days have passed,

Your soul and heart couldn't last

So u went without saying goodbye,

Leaving me n up u fly...

Regrets began to fill my heart,

Sadness began to take its part

Missing u and ur lovely smile,

Which i wish to see again one last time...

Remembering about our relationship,

I coudn't tell you how much i appreciate it

I could only tell u dat i really miss you,

And i only wish to be able to tell you that...

"i love u"....

*cheer me up someone*

~tata~

random

2006-05-16T11:43:00.000+08:00

so tired rite now..

hehe.. and ALOT have been happening lately.. wooooooot~

LIFE Very Fishies.... heh!

dont understand?! haha....
die sia... project suppose to hand in today.. i miss one class!!! wahhh!!!!!!!!!!!

GTG NOW!

*later blog more lar.. hehe*
~tata~

the Babes and the Kentals

2006-05-12T00:36:00.000+08:00

wahaha... got back from rehearsal today as usual.. reach home arnd 11pm.. so yah..

haha.. started off the day fine.. Mr garluck was sucky.. he wanted to be fierce when he is not.. wat the hell.. sux lar.. lol.. but ok lar.. lessons today is better.. understand all better lar.. lol...

wahaha!!! One of my lecturer just now.. during tutorial.. wahaha.. SHE already late arnd 12 minutes.. den.. when she came.. she was with her USUAL face that are expressionless ar.. haha.. and... we noticed her pants was unzip!!! wahaha!!! it was a female... and a LECTURER! wahaha!!! wth!!! and after we all laugh and etc.. my classmate actually told her.. and she was still expressionless and just zip up her pant and continue like usual!!! wahaha!!! wth... funny ah.. and during our 1 hr break.. we followed our classmate who wanna eat prata outside the skool.. haha.. so yah.. fun ah.. all day long.. stupid jokes and comments.. lol...

and den... at around 6pm.. met raz, yaz, harbi, lewis and ferhan,raodah and shikin(the babes and Babe!) wahaha.. damn lar.. wif them can die ah.. especially the babes and babe.. haha.. den at 7pm.. go rehearsal.. fun oso.. veri fun and exciting... yes... good job shah,nad and kin.. haha.. we still have quite a bit to work on the 2 Kentals..wahaha! but ok lar.. hakz.. quite fun oso.. haha.. so yah.. the babes wait for us for nearly 3 hrs! wahaha!! sorry ah Babes!

haha.. so yah.. now soo tired.. luckily when got home.. there were pizzas and etc.. so i ate till my stomach full and my heart content.. lol.. so yah..

Saturday got the Esplanade.. those read my blog and going spread around to meet at City Hall Mrt Station at 9.50AM! k...

*fun... <3 u*
~tata~

er er...

2006-05-11T00:58:00.000+08:00

haiyah.. so many things happening...

~argh!~

anyway... dunnoo if today(thursday) got the polyforum thingy or not... wth... and... so yah.. but 7pm got rehearsal.. so ok lar.. hakz..

alamak... die ler... next week assignments due.. hmm.. can lar can.. hakz..

so anyway... had a fine day yesterday... so got quite a handful of people going to the esplanade thingy.. hm... good ah.. hakz..

actually nothing to blog.. haha..

*life becoming interesting ler...*
~tata~

left or rite?

2006-05-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

halloooo...

so yah... im still missing AGM.. haiyah...

nothing to look forward to now...

no dance...
no storm...
no singing...

hmmm.... suppose to go NDP rehearsal today.. but again,.. i skip.. next week most probably i go lar...

so yah... Is just go home... and im quite bored rite now.. yesterday Raz and harbi left my house nearly around 10pm.. hakz... cool ah... heh~

hmm... now i dont know... Monday, tmr, going skool as usual... no rehearsals after skool... haiz... sad ah... im really depress... its like... rehearsals are oredi part of my schedule.. hakz.. wth... kk... now im thinking.. got offered by many clubs... im interested in 2 of the clubs actually... haha... either Samba or Dance... hmmm... dance is on wednesday... samba on tuesday.. so?? hmm... i could choose both... but... i dunno lar.. haiz...

so yah... looking forward to tuesday... samba rehearsal.. im gonna check them out.. hakz.. promise them to come down oredi.. so yah.. hakz... and......... looking forward for this saturday too! hakz... gonna go Esplanade to learnt all about the backstage crew work!!! WEeeee!!! Esplanade wanna work wif us and show us the crew work.. hakz.. and gonna sign up wif them too... cool... and if all goes rite... DramaTec gonna be working wif them... hehe.. but must come this saturday 1st.. hakz.. den can see how it all goes... weeee~ cool sia.. their receptions after the crew tour is at the wine bar and another place... walao.. sound impressive.. hakz.. so yah,.. here we come Esplanade! hakz!

so yah... need to check wif the freshies though... gonna bring them oso.. let them have some fun.. hakz...

hmm.. so yah.. and the rest of the days is normal... haha... cool ah.. tmr monday... school whole day... den tuesday.. samba day... wednesday... gonna have meeting... thursday... school oso... and friday... Vesak day! haha.. and Saturday... Esplanade... haha... and Sunday.. NDP... hehe.. cool.. looking forward to all these to make up the empty feeling of AGM.. yeah... haiz... and oh oh oh!!! yah... i forget... ;p ... the band keep asking for jamming... fine fine fine! we gonna go jamming one of the day next week k band! so remember!!! haha...

and gerls keep calling me.. especially one person.. adek know about her.. haiyah.. she keep calling lerrrrrr~ i have to ask my couz to pick up the phone sia... hakz.. scary shit!

k den... later den... wooo~

*another day just pass*
~tata~

everythin ends....

2006-05-06T08:29:00.000+08:00

Holla!

haha... at last... AGM IS FINISHED!!!!!!!!

it is great... really great... everything went just nice......... it was awesome.. the best DT event that we had in 05/06.

It is a good start for the new DT society....it really is... i love u guys(my current members lar)... thanx for making the event happening... and mag... thanx bro for being there to help me out... u are really great...

Ok.. we started off the day like every usual production day... everyone is quite bz doing last minute checking to make sure everything is rite... den after dat, we only take 1 run through of the whole thing wif very low energy... but it was ok... cos i dont wan my members to be exshausted... hakz.. it was great...

at around 7pm.. i was kinda worried.. everything is oredi in place... everyone was prepared... but im just worried... got many things going tru the brain.. hakz.. luckily i didnt stress out... hehe... so yah... and at 7.30pm.. it was oredi FULL HOUSE!!!! i was like "WOW!" cos i didnt really expect it to be full house... one of my worries was that if only half of the people will come.. but as i said, i worried for nothing.. hehe...

And the show started/// hakz....

and it was great... im proud of all my current DT members.. i really am... they have really done very well.. to be able to cover up mistakes and make it as part of the stage.. to be able to recover quickly and adapt to changes.. to be able to stay commit... and im really proud of them.. im glad they have fun during the production.. i rather have my DT members having much fun while performing... it really bring the best in them...

after the show.. haha... get to take lots of pictures wif other gerls and oso get commented such as "u are hot", "i love u etc", "u are great" and all that lar.. im sure all my DT members got alot of acknowledgement too! haha.. yay! hakz... it was really great... and me,harbi and raz just spend the nite out chilling and talking... hakz...

So... as i just said... i really love all my current Dt members for helping me put up this great show... and here.. i would like to say some thanx... here i go.. hakz..

i would like to thanx ALL arts group( samba, slavo, dance, choir, CO, mentor, MAG, ICG, band and even Production Crew ) for making it to my AGM... even though fayanne keep wanting u guys to go for her movie... u all still give me face and come down to my event... and after the performances... i received lots of messages from u guys/// im glad to know that u guys enjoyed the performances and event... and im glad to know that all the arts group are there for each other... i really love u people... thanx guys...

Next i would like to thanx ALL my members... mok, fri, bul, mag, nani, aidah, hid, farlina, joyce and etc(got many more ler...) for coming down... i cant tell u guys how much i love u guys.. u guys are always there when i need u guys and for that... i truly appreciate it... once again guys.. words just dont u guys justice.. thanx guys... thanx...

After dat... i would like to thanx the audience and FRESHIES for being supportive and responsive,, it was great... u guys really know how to laugh and enjoy wif us... yay~ thanx oso....

and thanx kay... for believing in me and making my event happening... i really appreciate that u enjoy our event very much...thanx gerl.. love u too! and paul... i really appreciate it that u came... and the way u said u will miss us and all... really wanna make me cry... u are a great fren as well as member paul... thanx bro...

and lastly... i would like to thank ALL my CAST AND MY CREW!!!!!!! i would like to thanx Yaz, adek(pika), jyuneen, mas, jared, raz, harbi, lewis, victor, priya, mato, ashwin, iggy and meili.... without u guys... the show would not be possible.. i really appreciate the time u guys put in and the effort u guys had to make this event, my 1st ever event and DT 1st AGM, to be sooo successful!!! yes! thanx u guys!! i know that i can count on u guys... and dont worry guys... now that i know that u guys are always there wif all the support for me... i really appreciate it! i love u guys very much... i really do... see... even if there is only us left... i still believe in u all... and i know that u all can do it... thanx guys!

and so... that is how all happened... in 1 nite.. in 3 hrs... everything was put out... friendship are strengthen... and love are bing pass around... once again...

thanx guys...

*i love u all.. and i miss AGM oredi!!!*
~tata~

Super Combo Finish!!

2006-05-06T07:45:00.000+08:00

Holla!

haha... at last... AGM IS FINISHED!!!!!!!!

it is great... really great... everything went just nice......... it was awesome.. the best DT event that we had in 05/06.

It is a good start for the new DT society....it really is... i love u guys(my current members lar)... thanx for making the event happening... and mag... thanx bro for being there to help me out... u are really great...

Ok.. we started off the day like every usual production day... everyone is quite bz doing last minute checking to make sure everything is rite... den after dat, we only take 1 run through of the whole thing wif very low energy... but it was ok... cos i dont wan my members to be exshausted... hakz.. it was great...

at around 7pm.. i was kinda worried.. everything is oredi in place... everyone was prepared... but im just worried... got many things going tru the brain.. hakz.. luckily i didnt stress out... hehe... so yah... and at 7.30pm.. it was oredi FULL HOUSE!!!! i was like "WOW!" cos i didnt really expect it to be full house... one of my worries was that if only half of the people will come.. but as i said, i worried for nothing.. hehe...

And the show started/// hakz....

and it was great... im proud of all my current DT members.. i really am... they have really done very well.. to be able to cover up mistakes and make it as part of the stage.. to be able to recover quickly and adapt to changes.. to be able to stay commit... and im really proud of them.. im glad they have fun during the production.. i rather have my DT members having much fun while performing... it really bring the best in them...

after the show.. haha... get to take lots of pictures wif other gerls and oso get commented such as "u are hot", "i love u etc", "u are great" and all that lar.. im sure all my DT members got alot of acknowledgement too! haha.. yay! hakz... it was really great... and me,harbi and raz just spend the nite out chilling and talking... hakz...

So... as i just said... i really love all my current Dt members for helping me put up this great show... and here.. i would like to say some thanx... here i go.. hakz..

i would like to thanx ALL arts group( samba, slavo, dance, choir, CO, mentor, MAG, ICG, band and even Production Crew ) for making it to my AGM... even though fayanne keep wanting u guys to go for her movie... u all still give me face and come down to my event... and after the performances... i received lots of messages from u guys/// im glad to know that u guys enjoyed the performances and event... and im glad to know that all the arts group are there for each other... i really love u people... thanx guys...

Next i would like to thanx ALL my members... mok, fri, bul, mag, nani, aidah, hid, farlina, joyce and etc(got many more ler...) for coming down... i cant tell u guys how much i love u guys.. u guys are always there when i need u guys and for that... i truly appreciate it... once again guys.. words just dont u guys justice.. thanx guys... thanx...

After dat... i would like to thanx the audience and FRESHIES for being supportive and responsive,, it was great... u guys really know how to laugh and enjoy wif us... yay~ thanx oso....

and thanx kay... for believing in me and making my event happening... i really appreciate that u enjoy our event very much...thanx gerl.. love u too! and paul... i really appreciate it that u came... and the way u said u will miss us and all... really wanna make me cry... u are a great fren as well as member paul... thanx bro...

and lastly... i would like to thank ALL my CAST AND MY CREW!!!!!!! i would like to thanx Yaz, adek(pika), jyuneen, mas, jared, raz, harbi, lewis, victor, priya, mato, ashwin, iggy and meili.... without u guys... the show would not be possible.. i really appreciate the time u guys put in and the effort u guys had to make this event, my 1st ever event and DT 1st AGM, to be sooo successful!!! yes! thanx u guys!! i know that i can count on u guys... and dont worry guys... now that i know that u guys are always there wif all the support for me... i really appreciate it! i love u guys very much... i really do... see... even if there is only us left... i still believe in u all... and i know that u all can do it... thanx guys!

and so... that is how all happened... in 1 nite.. in 3 hrs... everything was put out... friendship are strengthen... and love are bing pass around... once again...

thanx guys...

*i love u all.. and i miss AGM oredi!!!*
~tata~

WTF~

2006-05-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

omg...

kk... just now.. at that moment... i had 2 gerls chatting wif me.. on msn and on phone.. the msn one i ok... the phone... hmm

haha.. ok lar.. she sounds cute.. but... i dunnoo.. haha..

omg~

hakz.. chat for 1.5 hrs.. dieeeeeeeeeee~

*hmmmm?*
~tata~

hehe.. a fun day!

2006-05-01T04:04:00.000+08:00

hakz.. sunday just over.. haha.. so much fun.. hakz

so yah.. let me start wif morning ah.. hakz... me and Is(my couz slept over) woke up at 11am.. by that time my whole family had gone out to Wild Wild Wet. So, Udin(another couz) came to my house and we go off to Wild Wild Wet. haha..we had a good swim and fun. And then, there was this cute gerl sia! and she was like looking2 at us lar.. den we wanted to take her no. but too shy.. haha.. so at last.. before go home.. this gerl pass us again and so, i told Is and Udin to take the hp number for me cos im lining up in the KFC queue. haha.. wth...

so yah.. they did get in. and the gerl name was quite close wif my "dream" girl name, Hazwani(the dreamgirl is Syazwani).. haha.. so yah.. after dat, 3 of us play pool while the rest of the family go play the games in downtown. Of course i won all the pool game.. hakz.. after dat... me and Udin go to eat at Arnold wif the family while Is go home. haha.. so yah.. at there we eat sooo much.. im bloated.. haha.. after dat... we go home ah.. den all this while, i was smsing Wani(the wild2 wet gerl remember).. haha.. she told me she have a bfren and only have been 1mth+.. i tot she would be like not interested but i was wrong.. -_-".. she was like saying that she worried i dont wanna be fren wif her and she keep talking and etc ah. hakz.. so yah.. my couz was saying that "the gerl like me better" den the bfren.. and im like... -_-" .... wahaha...

after dat.. at 11pm.. me, Is, Udin and my 4th sis fiancee,Min, played soccer at the dome.. haha.. 1st game is me and Min VS Is and Udin. We won 10-9.. haha.. den me team up wif Udin VS Min and Is. haha,.. and this is more surprising... we WON 10-1!!! wahahaha!! wth... we are quite shock ah. haha...

after dat.. we relax in my room.. i chatted in the Alamak(a chatline) just for fun waiting for my couz to finish bathing. den... i ended up chatting for 3 hrs not to gerls or etc... but at the public forum where everyone talk wif each other.. wahaha... i keep disturbing people and this boy,nickname djgone, suddenly join me.. haha.. den we disturb others.. especially this boy Bob.. haha.. i dont know why i keep disturbing ppl.. hakz.. and then we all kinda form alliance.. haha.. suddenly.. got this boy.. go and ask EVERYONE for a fight.. except me, bob and djegon ah.. haha.. so everyone like piss off wif this fellow for acting so big.. wahaha!! and we form a new alliance and club... APA!! wahaha... must vote ok! our president is SmallBoy.. haha.. wth! haha... so yah... that all last for 3 hrs ++.. haha..

so yah.. have quite fun today.. haha.. now im very sleepy oredi.. Is and Udin is sleeping soundly now.. hakz.. wth,,.. k lar.. i cant tahan anymore...

*weeEEEEEEEEE for APA!! hakz!*
~tata~

a better day

2006-04-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

phew~

after a few days.. today is the best day man.. hakz.. its the most relaxing day i ever had.. haha

yah.. happy now... much confident and happier.. hakz.. and just now was quite fine the whole thingy actually.. hakz.. yeah~ haha...

k den...

*better~ hakz*
~tata~

Better...

2006-04-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

YES!!!

im saying now. im back.

i had cried my stress out just now while on the phone wif Mok. I cried the feeling of anger, tired and stress. After 1 year since the time i really cried of anger, i tot im strong enuf now. And today, i did cry again. And im sick of it. I am so tired and exchausted today that i nearly faint just now.

i know why im soo stress always. It is becos of the lack of planning properly and the worrying of things. I focus too much on the items that i forgot the time. I worried too much that if things goes wrong. And also, i keep doing work myself and worrying. That is why im soo stress. yes. That is why, i been thinking alot today. and finally, i came to an understanding that i will really stand to.

From now on, i will really take my full position as the leader. I will really act as a leader, plan the way i shud wif the committee, and assign works. Last time, i always tried to put a strong front infront of people so as not to make them worried. When things are not fine and too much for me, i keep saying its okay and etc becos i wanna have the strong look. But hey... if i am gonna be stress alone, den why bother put the others in the committee rite.

So, its no more me doing all the damn work. I mean it. For so many time, i tried to make everyone happy. Tried to compromise everything wif everyone. But that is what a FRIEND do. BUT now i am a leader of a club. I will do what me and priya think is best for the club. I cant be too focus on someone's feeling and ignore the rest. From now on, im gonna do what i should have done. I will plan out properly, i will assign work and make sure ppl do it, and i will do what i think is best for the club. I had tolerated enuf and now, i will take a full responsibilities as my role of a leader. I realized i had been too lenient as to do works by myself and etc. And that end me up in stresses. but now NO MORE. If i am gonna stress out, the whole committee WILL stress out too. If i am gonna be happy, the whole committee WILL be happy. From now on, everything will be more organised. After a cry just now, i feel more strong and more better. I am more determine now.

And as to people's getting into the things and etc, i dont mind much but there is also quite a limit. Im not saying anyone but in general. This i have to stand strongly to becos this committee will work on a different way. This is new faces, and thus new ways of learning and working. Yes, i would love helps and suggestions but i guess that is as far as it goes. i have to say this if i am ever gonna act as my real role and take control of things. Yes.

I feel much better now. And i feel much happier and motivated. Yes, i still stick by the word i said, i believe in everyone. From now on, i will act as my role properly and try my best to make the best of things.

*i feel re-born*
~tata~

erhm erhm...

2006-04-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

hi bloggyy!!

haiz... had an ass day today...

No no no no... not becos of stressness or worried.. its becos of some fadzley usual pissed off feeling.. haha.. mok know wat i mean.. hehe...

haiz..AGM is next week.. and saying that im not worried is a lie of course.. hakz.. it was my 1st ever organising quite a big event... usually i organise small events.. hakz.. but... it was frustating really. Some people don't know what had been done and is going to be done. It IS going as planned. Schedules for the whole week is done, planning for the whole semester is done, setting up of the groups are done. It IS done and the things are at home now, not that it was not plan out yet. Yet, i was told to do things that i HAD done at home. It is just that i wanna get thing out slowly and not rush everything at once, that will really make me stress and a mess. It isin't my way of working to begin with. I meant it and maybe i should have said it. But saying it was quite pointless. It was pointless when things are not the way that i had planned anyway. haiz.

Yes, now we know our budget. Damn. I didnt mind actually cos i KNOW abit how to work around things. It wasn't like i dont know wat to do and needed to be told always. Except for the LOA thingy, it was my FIRST time to do LOA for people myself. So come on, im learning. And im trying my best to do the best for the club. im not stress of anything. im pissed off most of the time rather den stress. FINE i mean. if people wanna see an organised and real committee, den i will give out EVERYTHING on the next meeting. I believe in this committe. I really do. I know we CAN get work done and definitely can do what we plan. But it is just a new way of working. it is our way of working and doing stuff. It can be better or it may be bad. But i believe we are on the right track cos we always think about what we doing and we believe in it. We didnt cancel things out last minute and we are not too ambitious(so far). We keep ourself busy but not too busy. And of all, we believe in each other and are open in every ways. For that, im sure we can be successful in our own ways. We doesnt need to prove it in words but through our actions. I know i have to be tough and strict and etc, but i dont wanna make the mistake that i had saw too many time... it is that of people began to think you as someone in higher position ONLY. I wanna change that concept. I dont wanna be strict wif people but i wanna be me as well as respected by others. That is my way... hehs~

Even though we are in higher post, i still wanna people to follow me becos of wat i had done for them.. i wanna them to follow me becos they wan to and willing to... i wanna them to follow me becos they respect me and they look up to me.. i wanna them to follow me because they acknowledge my position... and that is the highest position of Leadership. Not by force, displine and brute.. but by commitment, achievement and respect. From wat i feel so far.. people follow me becos of my position, becos of wat i did for them and becos i was look up to to lead them. And that is my journey up to leadership. I can sense respect for each other in them. And honestly, im proud of them. I know that watever i need, seek and want.. it can be done due to the effort put up by everyone. Thanx guys~...

And so... im not stressed out or anything. Its more like worrying. There is a fine line between stress and worried. i am quite happy wif the ways and efforts and initiative of the committee as well as the members. I appreciate all that. It was my fault that i always done things by myself, but then, that is my way as the artist and person. It is the end result that i look forward to. It can be quite frustating but the end result always are great and sensational. Hakz. Of course now i have to open up more to my committee and share wif them that feelings. haha... it will be cool..

Aside from that, i been soo tired. Tired due to trying to adapt to changes. Hakz. But me and priya see that we will go fine. We can do it! haha... ( im just excited now actually)~ haha... im sure that things will work out fine now. Thanx priya for the assurance. haha... i may seem bz.. and i am lar.. but i kinda have my own time to have fun.. haha.. its beginning to get more fun now.. this is where it is really starting to begin.. haha.. This is the start of the committee journey.. for better future?? we believe in it. hakz.

*i am a happpppy.. lalala*
~tata~

can i?

2006-04-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

dear blog....

can i cry?? i mean this... can i just throw everything else away in this world and just be free once more? I'm just too tired now. I'm just a boy.

Now i am feeling really down and tired. Why? Everyday is a day filled with responsibilties and concentration. Only 2 days school reopen and im quite busy concentrating my studies. I don't really mind that because i have to do well this time round to get a better feeling. And after that, drama. So yah.

In class, i have to concentrate and focus. After dat, my activity whole day. I have a great time now? hmm.. have to tink about that abit~

I been looking at people's blog, see ppl and notice them. Everyone is having fun and great time. I miss all that. I really do. Yes. I DO received ALOT of smses everyday. hakz.. but it was'nt "fadz, wan to hang out after class?" or "fadz, lets go shopping at...". It was "fadz, can i use some ppl..." or "fadz, where ah" or "fadz, u havent finish the" or "fadz, today do wat?" or "fadz, i cant come" or etc lar. And then i have to think again and again and again to compromise and make everyone happy. hmm... can enuf? im just tired. Let me rest for a day at least. Honestly, whenever i am awake, i have to use my brain to think and think for things. haiz.

I wanna have a life. I gotta have a life. This just isint the way i used to live. Now i have to do all this. Its good cos i became more matured and serious when work and more responsible. But... haiz.. maybe i just need someone.

Maybe i visit Yaz'r'us later. See if got suitable gerlfren being on sell. hakz. Juz kidd. wth.

hakz. K den. This is just to let this depressing feeling out. Im so tired. AGM is next week. Hopefully everyting turn out well. Hopefully. and maybe i will get use to all this lar. Hakz. yah i guess... maybe it is just school reopen feeling or just the worried feeling that my event will... turn wrong?*choy*... hakz...

*can someone switch on my "free-time" button again?*
~tata~

nearly there!!

2006-04-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

yeah yeah!!!

been dancing from 11.30am to arnd 6.30 pm today.... wif a break between ah.. damn tired sia.. at last... we nearly finish the 8 minute of freaking dance.. ahhhhh~~

so.. soo... sooooo... soooo tired!

*ahh...*
~tata~

all dance make Fadz a dance boy?

2006-04-22T00:52:00.000+08:00

wahaha...

so yah.. haiz..

finally... STORM is finished!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im loving it.. haha.. we had done the parts oredi and it is quite great lor! haha..

so yah.. den just now got rehearsal.. haiz.. everyday got something on about drama.. hakz... die lar.. soo tired.. hakz..

so yah.. back to just now.. was stressing out abit .. it was actually usual lar for ppl to be stress when something nearing or wat.. so yah.. den after rehearsal.. we go jam an hop... haha..

started off wif nick band playing... Vintage.. haha.. nick end off the show by playing his damn fast solo.. ass.. haha... so yah.. den after dat.. hip hop dance... hakz.. yah... quite cool but abit blend ... haha.. but still.. haha.. the gerls are all chio mah.. hehe.. den.... music started.. haha.. dancing!! hakz...

so yah.. it was great... been dancing alot ah.. den at Jam and hop oso i dance alot sia... hehe.. (yazid, pika and etc was saying that gerls keep looking at me and wanna dance wif me.. wahaha! ;p ... but dunnooo true anot lar...) hehe.. so yah.. hakz... but im kinda shy lar.. last time i dare to go up to any gerl and dance.. but now.. hakz.. dunnooooo why sia... hakz... damn lar.. miss alot of chance.. hehe... *purposely to make yaz jelous.. wahaha!! juz kidd lar bro.. hakz.. at least u got.. erhm... hakz* so yah.. fun lar.. so many ppl there that i know.. so its like dancing wif frens happy2 lar.. hakz.. den the last part.. in the tp mass dance.. i was giving it up cos i FORGOT the dance steps.. wahaha!! den fadly(production crew president) asked me to dance oso.. so yah! haha.. i agreed lar! haha.. quite fun cos we dance anyhow.. hehe... den after dat eat tecno.. haha... reach home arnd 12.30 like dat ar.. hakz..

now so tired.. damn.. 10am got meeting.. den after dat got dance rehearsal.. den after dat go jamming place.. den after dat celebrate ain's bdae........................ ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! see lar.. hakz... damn tired lar!

*life is dance-able*
~tata~

Many many seh!!

2006-04-19T13:04:00.000+08:00

orait.........

now is exactly 1pm when im writing... k..

gonna get ready soon.. meeting harbi and raz at interchange to get some stuff.. den rehearsal at 4pm.. wahlao.....

so many things sehhhhhh..................

hakz... trying to manage..

k.. have to finish DT board and proposal for camp by this week. Den have to get LOA confirmation for DT members oso. Den shopping for stuff is next week Monday. haha.. then tmr got rehearsal for art fest. Den Friday for AGM.. den got jam and hop soon after. Den on Saturday meeting at 10am.. den got rehearsal.. haha........................................................ den sunday got NDP rehearsal........................................................................... yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......... haha... -_-"

so.. wats been happening>>?? hmm..

hanging out and having rehearsals i guess.. haha.. yesterday the committee meeting wif every single represntative from each art club is so fun sia! haha.. damn funny lar they all.. especially Chee Siang from Salvo club.. haha... he keep making stupid comments and den he said "im very dissapointed wif the school" and make cynthia look at him and we all laugh.. haha.. stupid sia.. haha.. so yah.. hakz..

so now.. getting ready.. wanna eat 1st.. haha

and to my fren, khai, CONGRATS FOR YOUR COMING SOON JAMMING AND RECORDING STUDIO!!!! haha.. i confirm will come to check it out k! haha...

*life is.... bzful? haha..*
~tata~

Another day.. is going pass...

2006-04-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

and i cant get u out of my mind...

hakz.. just a continuation from my post title..

soo soo.. been awhile relaxing for now.. so yah.. hakz... i shopped on Friday.. bought arnd 5-6 shirts and 1 jacket... den bought some games, pencil case.. and a black tie!!! haha.. weee~~ haha...

i tink im falling in love~

haha.. wth... sidetrack abit only ah... so yah.. suppose to go out to NDP rehearsal today.. but feeling so tired and malas(lazy).. haha.. cos of the rain ah... and sooo, told my couz to tell the instructor that im sick today.. wahaha... so yah.. hehe...

im proud of my DT members.. haha.. yesterday we had achieved quite a few things from the rehearsal eh.. haha.. weee~ love u guys... hakz

soo, tmr got main committee meeting.. need to discuss stuffs;... den... tuesday got Week 0 briefing for the new semester and new term.. hakz.. great... wednesday rehearsal oso.. haha.. really great.//

so fast oredi year 2.. haiz.. time pass without us realizing it.. hakz..

k lar.. wanna play my guitar.. later den!

*my hair growing longer!! yeah!!!*
~tata~

Missing....

2006-04-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

heloo...

haiz.. something missing... yes...

I MISS THE TAC CAMP OREDI!!! AND THE PEOPLE TOO!!!!! ARGHHH!!!!

lol...

it was a GREAT camp... i enjoyed it very much.. lol

so yah.. on Tuesday/.. came to skool wif my camping bag arnd 9.35am.. den briefing for the camp start.. lol... i, being my nonsensical self.. go all around each group (some i dont even know!!) and make stupid jokes and comments... lol.. its like.. of course camping, if u have different ppl, everyone will feel awkward and etc for start... so... i, being the noisy person.. lol.. started to make noise and make ppl feel comfortable.. i was like, "wat the heck! since everyone here is the main comm and leaders, i might as well be frenly wif everyone!" !! wahaha!! so yah.. haha.. within 1 hr.. i got to know handful of ppl from different arts group.. haha..

so yah.. we started playing games.. im in yello team.. lol.. and as expected.. haha.. yellow team win the game!! wahaha.. lucky for priya, if not she will have to piggy back me 3 time as a forfeit for losing trice in the group!!! haha.. so yah.. den we have lectures.. den we have games.. and so on.. lol.. so yah.. den we just get to know more about each other lar.. haha!! it was oso fun cos we have Drama training session by external trainer and dance lesson oso!! haha... it was great.. hakz.. love it man....

den on wednesday, today, we started off playing ELF.. haha!! fun oso!! especially my group! wahaha!! cos we have to vs 3 others group.. and being wilful and "evil", i represent the group to make alliance wif each group.. so, my group is alliance to group1, 2 and 3 but the other 3 groups are not.. den we plan to crush all of them!! wahaha!! we crazy.. but yalar.. get scrathes from Wanda!! haha.. wth.. we even name ourself "the Champs" being confident that we will win.. haha!!... so yah.. den after dat presentations by each arts group.. den after dat.. Esplanade.. lol.. at Esplanade we visit the concert hall, audi and etc.. and it was like... "woah!" hakz.. and me and Fadly(president of Production Crew) keep joking with others(esp victor.. hehe) and abuse our "authority".. haha!! cos everytime someone said something to us.. we are like.. "excuse me?? are u in any position..." and so on! wahaha!!! we like to joke lar.. haha.. it was great... so yah.. den we have fun lar.. haha

so basically.. both the bus ride to and fro the esplanade there was a noisy boy who is trying to get everyone attention by singing along and play games.. he succeed abit only ah! nabeh...

dats me.. hahaha!!

but really man.. in quite a short time.. 2 days.. i feel close to the main committees from all Arts group.. hakz.. it was great to know them.. it was really fun!! and i feel sad to have to go.. dammit! lol.. now at least DramaTec main committee have made a friendly alliance wif production crew, ICG, MAG, Salvo, Samba, Band, modern dance and choir main committee!! weee~ haha

*i love the camp!!!*
~tata~

ps. i will put the pics when Fadly and Cat send me the pics k!! haha... weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
ps. ps. : thanx priya, mato, mastura and victor for being sporting and all hype up! hakz..!!

tired BUT happy....

2006-04-10T08:29:00.000+08:00

haha...

now is oredi 8.30 am... damn.. i havent slept for the whole day...

Sunday... after going to NDP rehearsal.. hehe.. i finally got it!! WOHHOOO!!! hehe... so now try to see ah how eh.. haha!

and den.. go home.. i chat wif a fren.. den soon after.. i started to paint the rest of my living room...

AND FINALLY!!!

ITS DONE!!!

lol!

yeah!! gonna get 200+ bucks.. wee~

hakz....

but sleepy sia.. argh!

have to go to skewl.. 10 am got rehearsal.. hakz..

*life is beautiful*
~tata~

often often nonsence...~

2006-04-07T14:21:00.000+08:00

lol...

been painting house lar.... haiyah... by saturday nite finish i tink..

hakz...

hmm... kk.. im feeling bored now..

hakz... chat wif mok often every nite till morning...

go out wif mag and mas and bul often....

hang out often....

playing guitar often....

been eating tecno often....

been filling up forms often....

been sleeping arnd 4am-6am often....

been shitting often... (???? haha)

been just as often as often///

haha.// stupid entry....

*woooot*
~tata~

many ppl many fun!

2006-04-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

helloooo~ haha.. alot had been happening these days.. lol.. let me go tru k.. haha..

so yah.. on friday.. i and ishi meet arnd 12+pm... haha... after 1 mth + never hang out wif him.. haha.. it feels great ah.. we are liek laughing and joking and laughing and joking.. so yah.. we applied for few jobs.. haha.. and we got a call back from the 1st company soon after.. and so.. we are required to go to the job the next day for training.. so yah.. haha.. den after we hang out and etc.. i go to skool for AGM rehearsal.. and.. the attendance is ok.. not that good though.. rosy, jared, lewis, emily and kenny not that.. im really disappointed wif 2 of the people.. DAMN disappointed.. so yah.. den we go eat tecno.. and den we go home.. haha.. mag and mas are like crazy oredi.. haha.. wth.. siao ah..

so yah.. next day, Saturday.. haha,.. me and ishi came late for work.. haha.. we reach work arnd 10am.. haha.. 30 min late.. so yah.. den we go training ah.. ishi go another grp.. and i kena at choa chu kang!! lol.. so my teammate is Shen Long and i forget another gerl name.. haha.. so yah.. the company is promoting a charity society.. so we selling charity and raise fund.. damn lar.. ishi drop out within 30min-1hr.. i drop out arnd 3 hrs.. lol.. but i manage to sell 9 tickets that cost 10 bucks each ler!! and the pay.. damn good sia.. 500-800 bucks per week.. yes.. PER WEEK!! lol.. u can reach 2k in 1 mth easily sia.. damn.. but then ah.. i feel ashame ah.. so yah.. i make excuse that my fren are admitted to hospital and boom! im gone.. wahaha! so yah... meet mag.. and its my turn to become crazy.. cos im tired and i cant believe i give up on a very good pay job.. so yah.. haha.. we go to Hougang and meet mas.. haha.. we go to mas fren bdae party.. lol.. so yah.. me and mag are the merry maker.. lol.. we enjoy ourself.. and we get to know mas members more... fyda, dyla and i forget who one more.. haha.. so yah.. anyway.. HAPPY BELATED BDAE FYDA!! haha.. so yah.. had fun playing games, eat, watch movie.. so yah lar.. haha.. they r cool.. hakz..

den when i get to my area, Pasir Ris, my couz Udee ask me to meet him somewhere 1st cos he is wif his members.. lol.. so i met him lar arnd blk 219.. haha.. and i met Yad, Hakim and 1 more i forget who.. lol.. they are funny sia.. haha.. damn cool ah they.. hakz.. so we hang out till 12 am den go home.. haha..

den on Sunday, which is today.. hmm.. i go to NDP rehearsal!! lol.. YEAH!! haha.. its great lar... Yad's father send us../ so met another udee's member.. shafiq... so yah.. haha.. me, yad, shafiq, udee and Qamar met at AP(Kallang) and took the transport there to Woodland.. the army camp there for rehearsal.. wahlao.. its great sia.. haha.. im in the same group as my couz, Shida, and oso Yad, Group 5.. haha.. thought going to Udee grp but Yad pull me into his grp.. lol.. great lar this guy.. funny... haha.. so yah.. we practise our dance steps.. and den we go to the padang to do formation.. shit.. haha.. i got the most good post lar.. haha.. im centre and most behind of the formation.. and i am the teartail of the arrow(we doing arrow formation today) and i am the head of the arrow at another point.. so yah.. the man in charge said i got the most important role cos the rest have to follow my marking.. wahaha.. and if i wrong.. then all mess up.. so.. wahaha! i tried lar.. when a formation i no need to move i move behind.. and all my centre row follow me and mess up! ;p .. siao ah.. haha.. and... got 2 cute gerls in our grp.. wahaha..! me and Yad wanna take their number ah.. den we thought better and try to act cool.. lol.. and when we going home.. we wanna took the transport.. and before we get up the bus.. one of the cute gerl's friend suddenly said to us "alamak! we not taking the bus lar cos they(the gerls) wanna go to zoo tonite" wahaha!! and we are like shocked ah! haha.. so yah.. nxt week sunday... me and yad planned to take the cute gerls's number.. wahaha!!

so yah.. it was great lar.. haha.. and den after rehearsal.. me, shafiq and yad take kallang mrt back to pasir ris.. and we talk talk talk.. haha.. funny ah they.. Yad.. is like another version of me.. really!! he love playing guitar and his dream is to make music.. and he interested in beat box.. haha.. and he used to be very deliquent but not anymore now.. and now he shy wif gerls, i mean shy to ask stranger for number.. his brudder(close frens) dont let him pierce, tatoo and etc... and he oso funny..wahaha! just like another version of me sia!!! even the brothers part.. lol.. funny ah... haha..

so yah.. a long entry for today.. haha.. so.. tmr gonna paint house and get money.. den after dat tuesday most probably im gonna start Hyatt Hotel back BUT in Banquet.. and if everyting goes well.. Saturday im gonna apply for my motorcycle license and Sunday got another NDP rehearsal.. it was great and fulfilling week.. haha.. looking forward to next week! haha.. yeah!!

*life always rawks!!*
~tata~

at lasttt~

2006-03-28T12:14:00.000+08:00

weeeeeee~

at last.. im in business.. lol...

i got a job.. 2 job to be exact.. 1 is under starhub.. it is door to door selling of starhub cable and max on line.. but ah.. base on commission ler.. hmm.. scared later never get any ppl ah.. den no money.. haiyah..

another one.. yes yes.. back to my old place.. grand hyatt hotel! wahaha! wth.. but still under my bro in law.. but a new place ah.. Banquet.. work always start around 5+pm like dat. so its ok ah.. still can make it.. haha.. i dont wanna go back to Straits Kitchen ah... i heard from all teh fellow SK members the new manager hardcore sia.. hakz.. cos my bro in law now transferred to Banquet and the manager there now... so i go banquet ah.. hakz..

hmm.. maybe i shud have another one LAST day to find job.. hakz...

so yah.. lol.. dance dance.. starting back.. and jamming next week start ah gang! lol.. learn all the song.. we gonna get gigs soon.. lol..

then maybe me and victor wanna go audition for Forbidden City.. haha.. it will be fun.. haha

so yah.. and eh.. still have to apply my motorcycle license... man....

hmm... haha.. so yah.. nowadays always hang out wif mag, bul, fri, mas, pika, raz and muna.. sometimes kay oso.. harbi oso.. haha...

gonna go out this saturday.. watching a musical wif alfri.. mok, mek, bul,magg oso if not wrong.. hmm.. dunno.. lol.. haha... so yah..

k lar k lar.. gonna go out soon.. meet the dancers and mag,bul and mas later.. bye!

*im gonna get bz*
~tata~

wild wild weettyy~

2006-03-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

haha..

so yah.. woke up arnd 11pm.. my couz Is oredi went home.. den i am suppose to go to rehearsal today!! dammit!!! It is National Day Parade REHEARSAL!!!! ah!!! start today!!! shit!! damn... but my another couz.. Udin called.. asked me out to wild wild wet.. so i cant turn down the offer coz my little couz whom is close to me and never see me for so long is following oso..

aiyah.. at wild wild wet.. haha.. got this cute girl ah.. one of the crew.. lol.. but shy ah~.. wahaha! so yah.. it started off rainy abit.. but after awhile.. it began to get more fun ah.. we took rides and swims.. lol.. so yah.. it was great today.. lol.. den go play arcade wif my couzs ah.. until 9pm like dat den i go home.. now tired ah...

haha.. so yah.. nothing much to update about except im proud of my wall!* wahaha~ * juz kidd.. haiz.. shit lar.. hopefully next week i am still elgible to come for the NDP rehearsal ah.. it is not motivator or the crowd ah.. it is as a dancer.. cool rite! i mean.. not literally dancer ah.. it is like.. the performers that sing and dance in the centre of the parade ah.. cool rite!! haha.. yeah!! hopefully next week still can go.. if not.. haiz.. haha

*im rocking my own sox?*
~tata~

yeah!!!!!!!!

2006-03-26T01:24:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!!

its done!!!

the 1st time wall masterpiece...

created by Fadzley...

assist by his annoying couzs... Is and Udee...

haha... so yah.. now we are hungry!!!

from 3.30pm up to nearlly 11pm painting and spraying the wall.. lol.. so yah..

gonna eat.. haha.. yeah~!!!!

new makeover for wall.. haha!!

a side of the wall...

Is looking cool...

Udee looking macho....

Fadzley.. ehem ehem.. as per normal.. cute, charming, handsome and all the words that goes wif it.. wahaha!

juz kidd.. haha.. yeah.. got one more side.. a skater boy side.. but nvm lar.. lazy to put the pic for that side.. so yah..

gonna eat !

*my walls are rocking my sox*
~tata~

im "amending"... hakz...~

2006-03-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

damn f**k..

im bored... not literally bored.. im bored of being only responsible and being held back on a "responsibility"... really.. im damn about this...

others are moving along.. some people join outside musicals.. some people find work and collect money.. some people enjoy days wif doing wat they love.. like hanging out the beach and free of things... some people gonna have gigs.. some people gonna make movie.. some people gonna make musical and show... some people just... ah...

me?

bloody hell... im here.. yeah.. dammit.. im just a kid...(simple plan song is playing in background.. lol)

mok know wat im talking about.. yes yes... others are moving along fine and me.. oh no fadz.. dont dont.. u have to do the thinking and etc k... no time for all outside things.. yah... no time for u to be free lar...

shit lar...

fine then.. from now onwards.. im gonna do wat I WAN... im gonna be like others.. go and achieve my dream.. yes mag... we gonna have jamming soon.. and im gonna get some gigs for the band.. get a bar/club for us to play in every night.. yes... im gonna do wat i wanna do.. not the other way round.. hakz.. others can go and achieve wat they wan... me? why cant i? hakz... yeah... and the musicals coming soon...? im gonna go for auditions... hakz.. wth...

hmph! im not joking by the way... i dont feel any laughter coming out.. not even a smile.. so yah.. -_- ....

*i wanna be like last time!!!!*
~tata~

Me and Her....

2006-03-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

haha.. today just got back!! tired sia.. we boys gone to skool.. play soccer... haha.. den after dat.. gym.. lol.. den after dat.. we go play cs while eat BK.. haha.. den after dat.. we hang arnd at tampines mall walking here and there playing xbox 360 at toys'ur'us.. it was cool ah! lol.. and den we go home.. but me and raz.. we talk talk from 9+pm to 10.40pm like dat..

haha.. we talk about a love life.. haha.. about a romantic scene.. which rarely happen.. which i hope will happen to me.. lol.. which i really wanna be in lar.. haha.. so yah.. we make a story as me the guy.. lol.. so yah.. now.. im gonna tell the story of a love.. that i wanna be in.. lol.. so here goes... *wif some love songs at the background* .. lol

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One day, I was walking at the tampines interchange with the gang. While walking, i bumped into a girl and she dropped all her books. Feeling guilty as i was in the wrong for bumping into people, i went down on my knees and quickly pile up the books. When i got up, i saw her. A face that are so lovely and gentle. And at that moment, everything became slow motion and we are just there, me and her. It seems like eternity when her friend suddenly tap her shoulder and we snapped out of "our" world. I just said sorry and smile at her. And we then walk away with a smile on our face. " Damn! I should have get her number!" i said to myself.

Soon after, I tried to look for her everytime at the interchange. However, there was no such luck. And i did'nt saw her for the rest of the days.

When school reopen, I was walking toward my school when i heard someone shouting. I turn around and saw a group of chinese guys surrounding a girl. When i looked closely, i realized it was her! I was quite surprised to see her in Temasek Polytecnic. So, I step in and said ," Hi dear! Waited long already?" And at that moment, the group of chinese boys just shut up and turn to look at me. I hug her and drag her out of the circle and just smile at one of the chinese boys. She then played along and hold on to my hand. After we distance ourself from the group of boys, she thank me for helping her. Soon, i found out she was from Design School, taking Multimedia Design and her name is Nurul Syazwanin. And we then end the conversation there because we each got our lesson to attend to.

In class, Syaz ( Syawani for short ) was in her own world. She keep smiling to herself and did not pay any attention to what the lecturers were saying. Suddenly she heard ," Syaz? Syaz?? Syazwani?" and that is when her friend tap her shoulder. She snapped out of her dream and just blush. And at the same time, I am in my class wondering about her too. We just can't keep our mind off each other.

Soon, after class, i was in ITAS canteen wif DramaTec gang and she was in Design canteen with her classmates. And at the same time, her classmates asked her why she look so lost but happy on that day and my friends asked me the same question too. And at this point, we said about each other (just like in Grease ). And at the last moment, both of us said, " I think, I am in..." and both our friends shouted,"LOVE!!". And i and her look at the sky at the same time, smiling to ourself.

Soon, at around 3pm in ITAS canteen, me and the usual dramatec gang enter the canteen. And at that moment, we saw another group of students sitting in our usual table. " Let's just find another table for today. ", i said. " No. That is our table. ", exclaimed razin. And yazid agreed and said, " Let me do the shooing!". So, yaz walk toward the group and said, "Excuse me, but this is OUR table. So can you guys move to another table?". That is when i tapped Yaz shoulder and look at the people sitting around the table. And i saw her. She looked at me at the same time i looked at her, and we just frozen on the spot. She smiled and blushed and i just smile shyly. Yaz, saw that we are friends, said, "Fine, since u guys are friends, we let you sit there for today okay? Haha!". And then we sit on the next table to her's. After a few minute, i got up to buy food. And, she got up at the same time as me! We looked at each other and smile again. So, we just walk to the stalls together, while each of our friends are watching our attics. While walking, i asked her what she going to get. She said, " I think I'm getting chicken chop. Cos i just love chicken!" And at that moment, i was excited and surprised! I am also going to get the same food and we love the same meat!! So, when we got to the sister's stall, she as usual, disturb me and said, " Wah... Now come eat with your girlfriend ah..." And at that moment, we are so embarrased and we just smile away.

After we got our food, she suddenly asked me, " What drink would you like? " I decline it because she wanted to treat me. However, she insisted as it was her way to show her appreciation for my help the other day. So she got off to get our drinks. After a while, I turned around to look what was taking her quite long and at that time, i swing my arm against someone. Splash!! She was right behind me!!!! And her hand was wet due to the spilled drinks. I am so embarrased that i quickly took out my small towel, which i brought for gym later that afternoon, and wiped her hand. (Mind you that it is a new towel coincidently!) Then she took the towel and wipe her shirt. She then insisted that she should wash the towel first before giving it back to me. So i agreed and she promised to give it the day after. After that, she had to go to class, which start at 4pm. " Well, i most probably be here when you finish your class later. " i suddenly said. She get the hint and exactly at 4pm, she entered ITAS canteen again. I, however, still have not finish discussing about DramaTec with the gang BUT, yazid suddenly said, " Well, we are finished now and I think you shoud send her home as an apology for the spilled drinks." I was quite surprised and at that moment, i felt legs kicking below the table. Both Yazid and Razin were signalling to me to go off and have some times with her! I'm quite shocked and please at the same time. And both of them whisper, "Go for it fadz!" in my ear. I just smiled.

Lucky for me, she lived around Bedok Reservoir. So, we walked through the Bedok Reservoir park, sharing jokes and stories. When we reach near her apartment, we waved each other goodbye and a shy smile was exchanged. After i walk awhile, i looked back and at the same moment, she also looked back. And we smile again and wave each other goodbye. When she get in the lift, she was smiling to herself while hugging my towel that she brought home. I, on the other hand, was jumping here and there and smiling like a mad person! I am really in love!!

At that night, we both just looked out the window and thought about each other. Me, with my guitar, playing a love song for her and she, staring and dreaming in her own world about me. Haiz...

The next mornig, I started class at 10 am. I was in school at around 9.50 am when i saw her at the bridge. She smiled at me and handed me my towel. I was quite surprised to see her early in the morning and asked her, "What time is your class?" She answered back by saying, " 2pm "... I am so touched and happy. And i looked at my watch and was thinking whether to attend lecture or just skip it for the day. I could not possibly walked off from her as she was there in the morning just for me. So, i called Ricky and asked him to take lecture notes for me. And i was free until 2pm too!!! So, we go to Tampines Mall to have some breakfast and drink. Then we took a walk to kill some time and suddenly, she suggested that we should watch a movie! She could skip her 2pm lecture and she don't really mind if i agree with her idea. Howver, i got my tutorial at 2pm and was again, thinking about whether i should go or not. She then told me to go for tutorial as it was important and just when i thought she was feeling dissapointed, she turned and smile while saying, " But we meet at 4pm after my class okay? Then we can watch later movie and spend the rest of the day okay?" And i just smile at her.

At 4pm, i was searching for her and worrying, because she forget to inform me where to meet her! And we did not have each other mobile phone number at that moment! So, i waited for her at the bridge for 20 minutes. She came soon and was relieved to see me there. " And here i am worrying that you would just go home when you did'nt find me!" she exclaimed. And thus, we got our tickets and watch the movie. The movie is about love and comedy, so, it was touching as well as heartwarming. We brought a large popcorn and a drink for the movie. While halfway in the movie, I was putting my hand in the popcorn box to get some popcorn when i felt something else. It was her hand!!! She was also getting some popcorn and at the same time, our hand meets. At that moment, we just looked at each other and at the movie screen, it was showing the love confession of the lead actor and actress. And our head keep getting closer and closer, when suddenly, someone kicked my chair and startled me. It was Razin and Pika behind us!! They were also watching the same movie and just notices us!! Damn! We are just about to kiss! Lol.

So after the movie, Pika, Razin, Syaz and me went to grab some food. After that, Pika suggested that we should go to the bazaar where there are games and fun fair happening there. Thus, we all agreed to the ideas of having some fun there. However, before we enter the fun fair, Pika suddenly wanted to go home and asked Razin to send her off. Raz was like, " What the? We just arrived! Have some fun first lar!" when he was nudged by Pika. Pika just winked at him and insisted to go home. So Raz got the idea and agreed to it. So, me and Syaz thought that we should go home too but Raz said, " Just go lar! Don't let us spoilt ur fun!" And so, Syaz and me then decided to go to the fun fair and have some fun. We played merry-go-round, bumper car, some rides and i won a teddy bear for her in a dart game. After having fun for some times, we decided to go home. She suddenly said, " Faz, I feel like walking today. Would you mind if you send me home? Please." and of course, i agreed to walk with her. We just walked and enjoy each other company. When i reached under her building apartment, she said, " Today, is the best day i had with you. And i hope it will be the same everyday from today onwards. Thanks faz." and she smiled the sweetest smile ever. So we just greet each other goodnight and i was about to walk away when she suddenly grab my hand, put another hand on my cheek, and kiss me. She then smiled and whisper, " Goodnight.", and walk off. I was frozen on the spot for a few second. And suddenly, a wide smile was painted on my face. It was a pleasant surprise.

I really am in love with her...

To be continue....

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And so... that is the story that me and raz had come up so far. How i wish it really happen to me! i would love it... i wish that i would fall in love in a different way. A more romantic way. lol.. how i wish...

so... the continuation will be post soon... for now... imagine urself how u would like to fell in love... it would be great... even if it was only imagination...

*how i wish love was romantic*
~tata~

V for... Very F.U.N!!!!

2006-03-22T00:15:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeee~

lol.. great day and great time and great month! lol..

kk.. today... met Lewis at 4+pm.. den we go Swenson with Lewis treating me.. lol.. for my belated Bdae.. hakz.. thanx Lewis!!! haha.. so i ordered some pasta and fries and lewis order bdae ice cream for me.. lol..so yah.. haha.. so swit of him! lol.. den after we eat and talk2.. den yaz came wif shah at arnd 5.30pm.. shah den give me a gift dat really surprised me!!! lol.. it was a card+magazine type! lol.. and very nice!! lol.. i was turn into magazine and he did it so well!!! thanx shah!! lol.. it was cool!! hakz.. love it.. hakz!

den mok came.. and bul and harbi.. lol. .. but shah cant join us so he go home.. lol.. den after dat... we go watch V for Vendeta.. it was a great movie! about revolutions and hope.. woah! really great and cool!! hakz.. but i wont say lar.. dont wanna spoilt the movie.. haha.. den after dat go eat again.. but this time at LJS only.. den we walk2 arnd the bazaar.. haha.. den the rest go home and me, mok n bul talk about some things.. lol.. den i go home.. haha... basically.. i enjoy it! lol...!!! haha.. so once again.. thanx Lewis for the treat and shah for the card magazine!!! haha.. it was great and lovely..!! haha.. weeeeeeeeeeeee~~ i really love my life! hakz~! and thanx kin for ur youtube video!! haha!!! love it!!

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hmm.. aside from all that.. lol.. just now we discuss some things.. and.. i guess.. i was wondering.. why.. cant people just accept the way another people is? hmm... wat people wear.. wat people does.. hmm.. as long as it doesnt affect u.. and make the person happy... issint it better to just accept it?? hmm.... not about any of us lar.. but of someone.. lol.. i just cant understand.. cos i just accept the way that person is and just ok wif it.. hmm

but really.. for me.. i really am quite tired.. not becos im tired of doing work or moving.. but tired of thinking much about people or situation... about stuff.. im tired.. people keep coming up to me and give me more things to think about... about another person or about items.. im quite tired being a busy-kinda man... i wonder nowadays.. cant i have a period of time where i am carefree like i used to be?? without responsibilities....???? where i am always fooling arnd.. joking... do simple stuff... and just dont think much... hmm... but this is life.. and i just accept it.. except now im trying to save some energy... hakz.. how i wish life was easy-going and carefree like it used to be.. lol.. but this is it.. as we grow.. we began to think./.. and as we think.. we matured... hakz..

so yah... i live each day to the fullest nowadays i guess.... hmm....

watever it is...

*i still love my life*
~tata~

WOOOOOHOOO!!

2006-03-19T12:03:00.000+08:00

haha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

first of all... THANKS TO MY SISZ!!!! for the chalet.. lol.. it was great! haha.. love it!! hakz!!

and... thanx to all my friends who came yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was a blast!!! i love it... lol!!

thanx to the gang... la, sha, fri, bul, mag, mok, mek, nani, yan, atiqah for coming! lol.. and thanx for the prezzie... u guys are great! lol.. i know u guys will be there.. lol.. thanxxx!!!! u guys are really really great.. lol..!

and.. thanx to my dt gang!!! lol..mei li, raz, yaz, kay, pika, jyunnen, shikin, mastura, lewis and harbinder!!!! haha.. u guys rawks man!! thanx for the overniting and enjoying urself! lol.. u guys are the best! lol.. and thanx shah,hally, nad and all for the wish.. haha.. its ok.. still.. lol.. u guys rawks! haha!! thanx for the present too!! lol *emily later can give! wahaha!!!*

and.. thanx to my 4E1 peepz!! lol.. duan rong, fiona, charlene, nkk, kai hoow, sunder, benson and shixiang!! lol.. u guys oso.. every year celebrate wif me! lol.. i love u guys and miss u guys!! it was awesome!! haha.. thanx bros and sis.. love u guys man.. hakz.. miss our last time ah.. but still.. lol.. its great.. ghaha..

and lastly thanx to all my makcik and uncle.. lol.. and couzsss of course.. lol.. it was great.. i love the chalet.. haha.. it was a great party.. love it! haha!!

*will blog more bout it.. haha.. !

*love muah lifee!!!!*
~tata~

i'm feeling windy~ lol

2006-03-16T14:50:00.000+08:00

hola...

lol.. kk... im kinda tired BUT bored rite now.. tired cos have been dancing and training my body for dance etc.. and bored cos i got nothing to do but eat at home! wahaha!... no lar.. play guitar.. xbox.. games.. chat.. eat.. sleep.. so yah.. lol...

yesterday rehearsal for AGM is ok i guess.. the DT members played some warm up games while i go meet Cath to talk about the proposal.. den when i come back we do the scripts and etc.. lol.. den yah.. dance was kinda cute at some part.. wahaha.. den storm is quite ok at front part.. overall.... it is good lar.. hakz.. and den go gym and exercise.. lol.. go home at arnd 10+pm..

so yah.. nearly everyday i keep dancing.. wake up mornin i dance.. at school i dance.. at home before sleep i dance.. bathing also i dance!!! lol.. so yah.. hakz...

anyway.. for those who i forget to sms or wat.. my chalet is this Saturday ... Downtown east... Chalet L Unit 118 and 119... ok! so just come and enjoy.. can overnite oso.. lol..

so yah... tmr my autiesss and unclesss coming chalet.. dunnoo who who lar.. but yah.. den saturday is frens.. lol..

*life is rawking*
~tata~

urgh...

2006-03-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

man.. im dead beat... dead tired... haiz

k... today my couz wedding.. which is quite happening.. cos all his motor gang(his racing group) came down and was soo noisy.. lol.. cool ah they.. funny.. hakz.. so yah...and was surprised to see faisal.. lol.. apparantly he is in the gang oso.. lol.. so yah.. den me and my couzs juz hang about.. lol..

haiz... damn tired man.. i like cannot rest.. i keep straining my arms and muscles... cos i need to do breakdancing stuff for all dance.. and thus... after 3 years of not breakdancing.. i lost all strength and stamina.. damn lar.. but can lar.. now i getting all back.. haikz...

den last saturday.. haiyah.. no comments.. quite disappointed on some people.. and den after dat we go hang at raz's crib.. and mag.. hakz!.. tsk tsk tsk.. never mind lar bro.. it will grow again.. lol...

hmm.. so yah.. damnnnnnnniiitttttttttttttttttttttttt~

i got so many things up! im like not holiday sia!!! i wanna break down dammit!!! urgh!

things:-
1) dance competition under Levis.. on April 16th... (dance nearly everyday at free time)
2) cmathhhhs
3)AGM rehearsals and event... im dead beat cos need to take care oso.. haiz..
4) Main Production rehearsals... (...)
5) 2 company... modeling and singing.. but lucky that one is now quiet for the meantime.. i
scared later if really confirm.. need more time...
6) nite shift work... (i need work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
7) band... (ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

so yah.. haiz.. and thus.. my holiday is filled with all these "excitements"/// -_-" ..... haiz..
im really bush out man.. haiz.. really really really damn tired.. *wanna break down and die* lol...
god..........................................................................

haiz.... im looking forward to the coming friday-sunday.. where i could relax abit... haiz... seriously.. i will be a dead man walking when skewl reopen... haiz...

~tata~

Wahaha!

2006-03-10T00:02:00.000+08:00

kk.. i take a few quizzzzeeessss... and this is all the results.. wth~ hakz..

Fadzley --

[noun]:

A real life terminator

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

hmmm.. does this mean i kill people/?????? or save people/??? or wat???

Your most appealing feature is:
Your Skin

Your best feature is your skin. Your skin has an incredible tone and is very soft. All of your friends are crazy jealous.

'What is your best feature?' at QuizGalaxy.com

i tink quite true.. cos kay jelous!! wahaha!! juz kidd

Your Theme Song:

"Stayin Alive", Bee Gees

'What is your theme song?' at QuizGalaxy.com

i wanna stay alive.. so i tinkk... hmm

You fit in with:
Hindu

You ideals mostly resemble those of the Hindu faith. Spirituality is very important to you, and you value family, friends and life above other things. You have incredible faith, and will live a very worthwhile life.

80% spiritual.
80% faith-oriented.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
just becos im indian~ wth

You have a sexual hidden talent

You have a sexual hidden talent. You might not look it but you are a dynamo in bed. Most of your lovers think that it is from years of practice, but really, you were just born with it.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

errr.... talent in bed?????? hmmmm... -_-"

wahaha.. so yah.. wth... now i know.. wahaha...

*i love my life*
~tata~

To Go or Not To Go... I also dunnooo!

2006-03-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

OK!

im bored... lol..

today spend the day chatting... playing guitar n watch anime.. dats all.. and eat eat eat.. lol..

learnt 3 new songs.. 1 song complete and 2 more is only parts that i like.. -_-".. haha.. the solo parts and all.. haiz.. and im bored.... lol..

so yah.. lucky tmr going out.. gonna prepare for our dance competition.. shit... den drama main production rehearsal.. den AGM rehersal.. den work.. hakz

die lar.. and kay! "when wanna have photoshoot??! i wanna our modelling card to be make as soon as possible..........!!" haha... hmmm.. lol..

ahh... gonna have my tagboard up soon.. requested by many ppl.. so i tot ok lar.. i put a new one.. k.. haiz.. i wish i can spend some times wif a love one just sitting by the beach or walking.. hakz.. now my mind of love is quite simple and old~ish a bit.. i rather sit by beach and relax den playing games.. i rather draw.. relax... and enjoy~ lol... wth.. * i miss playing soccer!!!! hakz~

haiz.. and my mom said 2 of my couz ask me to join them go to new zealand on april 7.. and my mom said quite short... i ask how short.. my mom said "10 days...!" im like "WAT??!!" ... lol.. cos 10 days quite long i guess.. lol.. or issit short?? hmm.. ahh.. think about it 1st.. maybe i can ah.. i deserve some breaks!!! heh~ hakz.. k ah.. i wanna watch dvd.. bye!

*i love my life*
~tata~

me and my new found sis.. lol

see.. we keep wearing same clothes color.. hakz.. siao..

ps. just wanna post this pics cos im bored.. lol.. and im kinda amazed by how similar our clothes are.. lol.. *see tmr how ar pika... lol*

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

2006-03-04T01:24:00.000+08:00

OK... lol.. juz got back from a play tainted flowers/// lol.. quite okay lar the play.. not bad.. entertaining ah.. haha

yes.. my proud frens are in the play!! Yazid, Halimah, Faisal, Sarah and Shima.. lol.. so yah.. and MSB.. lol.. Zul oso as stage lighting (as usual) lol.. so yah..

meet the peepz at around 6.30 pm.. most of us wear Stripes!! and.. especially my little sis, pika! lol.. we keep wearing same shirt.. lol... so yah.. den we beatbox and draw draw and eat at the Mc... so den after dat.. go up and get the tickets.. lol.. saw soo many ppl sia! like all i know.. lol.. there's the DT peepz and etc.. den suddenly saw my juniors... and den more juniors... and den MORE juniors!! lol.. den saw some seniors.. and then... alfri! then after that.. saw the Mok's gang!! den Fatin gang! wahaha! wth.. den saw the victor gang.. hakz.. so many ppl sia.. like gathering like dat.. lol.. so yah.. and saw Her.. actually.. i quite looking forward to see her ah... and... when i saw her.. hakz.. im.. speechless.. lol..

so yah.. the play started off with a funny scene dancing to a hindi song! wahaha! very the klakar ah.. lol.. so yah.. throughout the play... it was funny.. lol.. quite entertaining./.. but at some points.. hakz.. yahlar.. haha.. den after the play.. we go eat at al-salihin.. lol.. me, along, kay, raz, harbi, mag n mas.. den emily come and join... den saw them and her at the cooffee shop too!! i thought of taking pictures wif her.. but i forgot.. lol.. so yah..

haha.. i kinda.. dunno... i keep looking over to her.. and.. hakz.. dunno lar.. lol.. so yah.. maybe i do have feelings there.. hmm.. hakz..

so... now.. i am currently teaching raz n emily beatboxing.. lol.. who would have tot that i love beatboxing now.. lol.. and i still need to teach pika, raz, harbi n etc etc all play guitar.. hakz.. wth.. so yah.. hmm.. AGM coming up.. and main production.. see how ah.. im inviting the jyss peepz drama to watch.. lol.. so yah.. anddd... oh ya! modelling.. need to take some photoshoots soonnn.. hakz.. so yah lar~ and oh! i still dunno the dance competition.. hmm.. we maybe taking it up~ lol..

hmm.. kk.. i dunno if i wanna come down the another modelling place tmr.. they keep calling.. hakz.. wth... 1 is enuf i guess..

*i love my life*
~tata~

WORK!!!

2006-03-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

ok peepz.. lol.. hello!! haha..

tired seh.. just got back from finding jobs.. lol.. me, kay, raz, muna n pika.. haha

so yah.. met them at long john silver at city hall at arnd 11pm.. haha... den we start finding work ah.. arnd 12+ den we start our journey.. haha..

1st stop... we walk all the way to this building.. quite near ah.. den we kind of see wat it was.. it was a modelling company.. lol! im sooo excited!! wee~ so yah.. we apply for it.. and now we are under them.. and we have to make some photoshoots to keep in our portfolio.. and they will make a card kinda for our modelling pose so that client can choose! weee~ we are soo excited!! we gonna have photoshoots soon!! lol!! yeah!! become a model!! weeeeeeeee~ so we kinda into model agency now.. wahaha! yeah~
2nd stop... we walk to the TCC shop.. coffee house kinda restaurant.. lol.. at bugis... so yah.. just fill in forms and interviews.. so... i dunnoo.. lol.. im kinda not interested in it lar~ hakz!
3rd stop.. this place that is kind of telecommunicating... lol.. it was great ah the job.. 7 bucks per hr.. and flexible timimg.. we can choose our own time work.. and hey! we are kind of talent scout group and we scout for talents... 15 names per hr!! woah! easy sia.. in singapore.. u need to bullshit ur way tru a person.. he or she will confirm be happy and apply rite.. lol.. yeah! good pay! and we are immeadiately employed and can start work anytime! wooohooooo!!

Then..LASTLY we go to Aljunied... lol.. we go to this recording Studio... a company ah.. quite cool.. starting pay is 250 bucks per assignment... either recording, live or etc.. so fun.. lol.. but i kinda thought that maybe only kay and pika and raz will be choosen ah~ cos im kinda down with singing after twice fail in the competition( Anugerah n Singapore Idol).. so yah.. but i just try for fun ah.. im like not serius ah.. den..after we all sing(i sing last.. lol), the person took down my hp no. and name.. and she oredi got kay's.. den she speak to 5 of us.. and lastly she said that those she didnt take down phone no. cant go! im kinda shocked to get in wif kay!! haha! really! im surprised! but still.. if raz and pika oso go in.. it will be more fun seh!!! wahlao~ maybe later on.. haiz..

so yah.. sooo tired sia.. i got home.. mom cook my favourite dish.. chicken rice.. and oso this durian kinda soup... woohoooo! lol.. + my 4 sisters all in the house.. sum up to noisessss! lol.. so yah..

tmr kinda thinking of going to fins work oso.. but.. i dunno.. now i got 3 work.... 1 is the telecommunicating.. quite stable.. and 2 is the sideline... modelling and singing... lol.. quite new to me.. so looking forward.. hope we get an assignment soon for any of them.. lol.. i just wanna try out! yeah~~

*i love my life*
~tata~

ps> more pics from that day! lol

bang bang! magg's brain-dead*as usual.. lol!*

look look!! cool!!!

"the gang!"

*hmmmm* lol...

spelll.... F.U.N!!!! FUN!!!

2006-02-27T23:33:00.000+08:00

woohooo!!

sleepy ah me.. lol... tired... just got back from the outing... lol..

so.. arnd 11 am we met.. den we saw ross and her frens going sentosa oso.. lol.. we got to sentosa.. n everyone becoming crazy.. and we are the noisiest ah.. lol.. den.. we all go Siloso beach.. lol.. the weather are quite hot at first... we play games.. sing song by beach.. take pictures.. lol.. we are crazy ah.. lol.. and eat, eat n EAT!!! lol.. den kay came... *kay came late!* lol.. she bring.... very damn spicy rice.. wahlao.. can die.. lol.. juz kidd.. but quite nice..lol.. so yah.. den we play murderer... lol!.. wahlao! everyone kena throw in the water(except harbi n kay*....) ... lol!!! got one time.. we add a murderer and police lar.. so.. it was supposedly to have 2 murderer n 2 police while all of the other 4 is civilian.. so the police catch 1 murderer.. den ah.. we all wait for another murderer sia.. we are like.. waiting and waiting for someone to kena kill.. den i say "murderer never kill.. i count to 10... den everyone open card ah.. the murderer we throw in the sea...!" with much confidence... and at last... when everyone open their card.. there are... 1 murderer.. and 3 polices!!!! damn! lol.. everyone look at me*cos i put the card in...* and the boys throw me in the sea! wahaha... damn lar.. lol.. so yah.. after play play.. we all tired + damn hot sun.. sooo ... we relax abit then arnd 4+ we go out of siloso beach.. den pika and harbi have to go off early.. den ... me, mag, bul, kay, fri and mas go to the magical fountain... a show starting at 7.30pm.. so we wait for an hour.. damn! it was WORTHY!!! it was GREAT! it was the greatest animated + real water fountain + kinda short musical water performance before!! woah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was G.R.E.AT!!!! we love it!... lol..

den after being awed by the performance.. we go back to harbourfront and walk arnd waiting for pika and mona(finish their meeting oredi) and go eat ah.. but while waiting.. hakz.. me, kay and raz were planning on a KL trip.. lol.. bul, mag, fri, pika,me,raz, mas andkay and etc... lol.. so yah.. at least 6 or more ppl going ah.. damn fun ah.. we planning to collect 30 bucks from each ppl every month.. so by the time we go.. we have 240 each like dat.. which is 500 ringgit each person... so if collect arnd each person.. we have arnd 2000++ and more ringgit in hand for transport, food and travelling.. lol.. we got plan oredi! woohooo~ hopefully it will happen.. im really excited just by thinking of it~ lol.. *as bul say.. at least got some planning progress...wahaha!*

so yah~ enjoy today very much.. lol.. it was great.. and now i have sunburn.. here are some pics from today... using bul's hp... but we got MORE PICTURES in Mas's camera.. so i havent take yet.. so i show this 1st lar kkkkkk.. haha..

*i love my life*
~tata~

the beach boys... use photoshop after diff pics taken.. only magg n raz never take.. lol..

dunnow wat im doing oso

lol.. magg like blind person ah~

magg more worse.. lol.. this is the brothersssssssssssssssssssss... haha

the gang~ wahaha,...

ps. more pics from mas soon! lol

hakz!

2006-02-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

weee~

just got back.. from Bul's creed...

so yah.. lol.. i read manga from morning till 5pm.. den i go out ah.. meet mag under bul's place.. den go up.. lol.. funny lar.. den after dat... we boys........ BAKE BROWNIES!!!! damn!.. lol.... we are like.. cooking! wahaha!!! den cook oso we make stupid jokes and comments ah.. lol.. den after dat.. bul's mom cook us some food so we eat till finish.. we tot of leaving some to bul's mom but BUL pratically finish the food.. -_-".. lol.. den after dat.. we relax in his room and talk about the past and watch videos of the past.. lol.. damn funny lar..

den arnd 9.30 pm.. go home.. while waiting for a bus.. i saw theses 2 ladies.. smoking ah.. den they call me.. "dik.." and im like.. ????? ... wahaha.. den they talk to me ah.. just get to know each other.. found out that one was from tp law student year 1 and another one is Nanyang poly year 2.. lol.. they are quite surprised to know my age.. den after dat, we talk all the way till pasir ris.. cos we took same bus.. lol.. they are great ah.. funny gerls.. lol.. so yah.. haha

sooo it was great.. tmr.. gonna go sentosa... lol.. yeah yeah~

*i love my life*
~tata~

OKAY!!!!

2006-02-25T21:11:00.000+08:00

haha... it was GREAT TODAY!!! haha.. really great.. i am happy.. weee~

1st... before anyting... i wanna thank MAG, BUL, MAS, PIKA, RAZ for coming down to support me!!! i have a great time wif u all!! it was great lar!! u all really boost my confidence and u all really are happening! lol.. and thanx ALFRI,KAY, EMILY, YAZ, JYUNEEN and MY SIS for supporting me by calling and smsing me.. lol.. i really aprreciate to know that i have the supports.. wooooo~!

so at 10 am i reach the anugerah skrin audition place.. yes.. i line up and watch some ppl doing audition.. haha.. and raz and pika came soon after.. and they are sooo supportive!! haha.. they keep telling me to go for it.. maintain myself.. dont be scared.. n etc.. woah.. arnd 2pm.. i got in.. den judge go eat.. and thats when bul, mag and mas came.. haha.. mix all and u get... NOISE!!! lol.. they are sooo noisy and so happening that it is obvious that the most "ON" group is us.. lol.. and wif the cheer of "go fadz!", "autograph!!!" and "fadz can do it!!" from the peepz(even though it quite embarassing cos they pratically shout all over the place and ppl + contestant are looking).. it really feels great.. and when i come in.. phew.. i was very compose and i tried my best to give out my emotion.. lol.. when i came out... there was claps... yeeahhha.. haha... fun ah.. i feel great.. and result will be given in 2 weeks time!!! i dont wanna get my hope tooo high but i am quite confident that i can get tru as i give my best.. i HOPE... but if judge dont choose me.. well. wat to do.. maybe i didnt give what they looking for ... hakz.. but still i feell good!.. haha

so yah.. den we go eat at kfc.. and talk crap all the way ah.. haha.. i know alfri wanna join but cant cos he got band practise cos conductor coming.. lol.. so yah.. it was G.R.E.A.T!! we are like pratically laughing like hell ah every minute.. wahaha.. den we go to raz house.. we watch a dvd about a rock band.. a malay movie.. lol.. funny ah.. den we play ps2.. wat the hell! lol.. me, bul, mas and raz's 2nd bro VS raz,magg,pika and raz's 3rd bro in a team match!!!!! haha.. it was damn funny ah.. wif things in the house broken and laughter soo loud that pika got high!! hahah.. great time man.. lol.. and den me, mag, mas and bul go MC arnd 9pm and hey.. the strawberry milkshake is great!!! it is really sweet but a bit sore in the throat if tooo much.. haha.. worth my 2.20 bucks!

anyway..
i really had a great time today!! thank you u all!! at least even smses and callss really meant a lot to me.. i love you all... hakz.. wooohhoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope i get in!! i really hope!!

*i love my life*
~tata~

ooouuuukkkaaayy!!!

2006-02-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!
EXAM IS OVER!!!!

phew~

just now paper is orait,.. hopefully can nail it ah.. hakz.. so yah..

now left..

ENJOY!!!

so tmr.. is Anugerah Skrin.. scary ah.. haiz.. i hopefully get it.. i really want it... hmm.. hopefully.. hakz.. and then Monday.. Sentosa!! woohoo! so far konfirm is me, raz, pika, harbi, lewis, fri, mek, bul and mag.. left kay n mas.. kay if come she will bring pasta! woohoo! and mas.. must ask her mom 1st.. yeah. we gonna realx whole day.. lol..

after dat... woohooooooooooooooooooooo~ enjoy Enjoy ENJOY!!!

haha..

just now after paper.. me n my classmates go eat at LJS.. before we go out from skool.. Desmond saw the flag which is halfway down due to someone important death in ministry.. and he said...

"Next time u all see it!! it will be down down down!! cos desmond will die and this country loss a useless person!"

with so much passion and tone and rythm.. its damn funny how he said he is going to die..... hakz.. wth.. -_-"

*i love my life*
~tata~

wooooooooooo~

2006-02-23T19:12:00.000+08:00

haha.. so yah... 1 MORE PAPER TO GO!!! damn.. the two paper are ok.. yesterday.. DCNK.. wahlao... haiz.. tough... hakz..

so yah.. moving on.. last 2 days.. keep playing real life "counter Strike" but wif water gun.. wahaha.. yah yah.. for some ppl.. it will be " -_-" ".. wahaha.. but it was fun~.. it was cool yah.. hakz.. have great fun.. hee~

and i wanna study for tmr paper soon!!!! hakz.. cmaths.. wish it is quite easy.. haiz.. darn..

and after dat... ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bul just called.. tell me that magg and him just finish paper today! eksyen~ and harbi oso ah! hmphhhh~~~ never mind.. tmr oso i finish.. wat is 1 day different yah~.. haha.. yeah yeah.. and den..

HOLIDAY!!!!

next week.. monday going sentosa wif the old peepz as well as the new peez.. wahaha.. its like a combinantion of my close frens.. gonna have fun there.. haha.. 1 whole day of relaxation.. after dat.. me , raz, pika, kay.. harbi and etc maybe going camping.. wee~.. haha..

But the most im looking forward is this Saturday!!! ANUGERAH SKRIN!!! me, yaz, pika and raz(i tink).. gonna enter.. woohoo~ hopefully get tru.. we can either become host or actor.. its gonna be fun!!..

SO FUN!!! WAIT FOR ME!!! HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!

*i love my life*
totz~

look a bit like ronald mcdonald rite?? wahaha.. done by overleaf food.. hakz!

yeah!!!

2006-02-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

haha.. weiiiiiiiiiiiii!~

haha.. so im here.. resting.. just got back from school.. tired siol~

haha.. so yah.. today got IISO and OOPG.. the java paper and the business paper is quite ok ah.. better a bit than i expected.. haha.. and the OOPG project i got B~ sheesh// never do bonus mark... but still... ok lar.... haha.. but the damn thing is.. i forgot to bring my pencil case!!!! haha.. lucky i borow a pen from a stranger.. but then i dont know where he disappear to~ hakz!

so yah.. after dat.. met kay, raz, jyuneen and pika... we relax at ITAS den we go KFC... haha.. so yah.. so hungry sia.. den after dat,,, kay and pika talk about businesses... they wanna open up some thing big! haha.. so yah.. i wanna be the designer for the place.. woohooo~.. haha.. den after much talk.. arnd 8+pm.. we go bubble tea shop.. and each of us got heavenly nice damn bubble tea.. especially mine!!! wahaha!! i got DURIAN Smoothie... which is mix wif ice cream and real durian.. it was.. slurrrppp~ haha.. so yah.. we den chat at the interchange.. mostly we talk about the anime character dat im gonna draw after my exam finish.. about us! haha.. cool... Duke Razin, a markmanship killer cool guy in black wif reddish black spec.. Lady Kay, a cheerful and loyal girl with power of angel of light... Count Yazid, a spawn-like red cape "ninja"-like character wif great speed and power.. Lady Pika, an ice-queen of icy strength and heart.. Lady Jyuneen, a new character coming soon... hmmm.. and me!!! the supreme lord of all! haha.. hidden power and strength... hakz... weeeeeeeeeee~

so yah! im gonna start drawing the characters asap lar.. haha.. if got time.. haha.. so yah.. tired~

haha.. gonna relax.. tmr study DCNK cos wednesday got DCNK paper.. den afternoon Hannah wanna help in doing cmaths.. yeah~ haha..

and im joining Anugerah Skrin wif yazid, razin and maybe pika.. woohooo~ i wanna be a host! hehe

*i love my life*

~tata~

eh oh...

2006-02-20T01:20:00.000+08:00

haha.. hellllloooo

im sleeping soon~

doing nothing.. suppose to study.. but i really got no mood ah!!!! die sia!!! and guess wat.. my 1st paper.. IISO.. will be at 9.30am.. hakz.. in a few hrs.. but i finish revising dat one.. so i hope i can go on wif dat.. and java.. omg.. dat is at 2.30 pm.. and.. i only see tru.. cos i dont really no wat to study for java.. i can remember some codes and understand.. but some also i dont.. so.. tmr.. 3 hrs... i will study java.. and den can lar.. hakz

but hey.. i see my timetable again just now.. and.. guess wat... -_-".. my timetable are so slack.. today 2 papers.. den tuesday dont have.. den wednesday DCNK.. den thursday dont have.. den Friday cmaths.. so after today.. the only paper i have to overcome is cmaths.. cos my dcnk is pretty well okay now.. hakz..

so ok lar.. hope i can get AT LEAST above C+ for all papers.. im better in projects den exam papers.. haha.. cos projects i really can do well ah.. so.. hopefully the papers will be ok.. hakz.. HOPEFULLY.. pray to god*.. haha..

k k.. this study week is really a nuisance... i dont really study much!! i hate study week.. sheesh...

and hey.. dat doesnt change the fact that

i love my life....
~tata~

haha!!

2006-02-17T00:15:00.000+08:00

so its finally over...

haha...

to the people .. im sorry...

and to some people.. (raz, kin, pik, kay, mok, mag n fri, ash n mato(extras! lol.. juz kidd))..

thanx!~

lol.. so yah.. today have great fun.. and there is lots of truth being told.. me, kay and raz spend whole day wif each other.. haha.. after eating at ITAS... we settle some stuff and etc.. after dat.. we go library.. me and raz planned to study but we go watch Kungfu Hustle again.. lol.. we laugh like mad ah.. haha.. so funny.. den we + kay.. we got to level 8 to "study".. after i wrote a few lines.. we chat and chat.. haha.. chat about so many tings.. and we dont stop ah.. we walk to interchange while chatting.. haha.. along the way.. i called alfri to go out from his house to wave down to us.. haha.. his mother oso come out.. hehe..

so yah.. we chat till arnd 10.20pm.. kay had to go.. so yah.. hakz.. den.. at the bus.. i feel like chatting wif someone who have long been forgotten.. wahaha!! no lar.. juz kidd.. not forgotten.. haha... so yah.. halimah lar.. haha.. so yah.. called her to chat up wif her.. wahaha!! its funny how i called her.. we end up laughing tru most of our conversations.. haha.. my jaw actually sprained from chatting and laughing wif her too much!!!! haha.. good to hear she doing fine and well.. haha.. so yah.. we chat for arnd 45 min den i have to put down cos i wanna bath.. haha.. good to hear from a good fren who is lost in the kampong.. hehe *minah kampong!!!*.. haha..

haiz.. so yah.. haha.. today.. is very the truthful day.. haha.. everyone being honest.. and etc.. tru all this.. we realised who will be there for you.. haha.. im grateful for this to happen.. hakz..

*i love my life*

~tata~

ps. if u all noticed.. i always end wif *i love my life* nowadays.. cos i really do!.. haha

Friends............

2006-02-15T19:17:00.000+08:00

well.. im bored.. so i am pondering over something while playing the guitar.. its about.. FRIEND.. lol..

generally.. what is friend?? hmm.. someone who understand you? who are there with you AND for you? someone who you know that will help you? someone u love? hmm.. haha.. i myself dunno.. seriously.. i do know however.. friends.. it is more than a word.. it is more than wat it is... it is more than just feeling.. it is commitment on a high level.. it is something... very valuable..

for my case.. friends... i got a damn lot of friends... i met people of differrent ages.. backgrounds.. i got a friend of a crazy background to a nerd to a cool to even a drug addict.. i got friends from age of pre-primary school up to age of 50+... i dont mind being friends wif all kind of people.. cos sometimes.. a friend that is not of normal state is MORE precious than a normal friend u meet in school and even ur drama club!!! for me.. many frens claim to be "brothers".. "best frens".. "good frens" and even "close frens".. hah.. wat a joke.. hakz.. it is just words with no meanings.. thats all.. cos some ppl used it soooooooo easily and unwisely.. heh~

but from all that claimed and etc.. i can truthfully say.. that brothers and sisters applied to mok, fri, mag, ishi, mek and even bul.. that is for sure.. it is coming to 6 years for some of us.. and some.. 5 and minimum is 4 years.. it have been great... we have been tru alot together and individually.. i can truthfully say that i cant imagine how life is without them.. hakz.. they are not ur typical gang.. who only beat ppl.. who is wild.. who stare stare at ppl.. they are more than that.. lol.. they are fun... hakz.. and i still remember the 1st time me, ishi, bul and magg become close.. hakz.. it is during a malay period.. haha.. and the 4 of us.. have stomachache at the same time!!! hahaha!!! and we took turn to go toilet.. and when bul turn come.. hakz.. he was scolded and was not allowed to go.. *cos it is quite irritating to the teacher that we each go turn by turn.. she tot we are fooling arnd* wahaha!!! haiz.. those great times..

so yah.. and for best frens, close frens and good frens.. there are some ppl that i can talk about.. kay... she know me and defend me and oso very fun.. haha.. she can connect easily wif alfri! which is surprising ah -_-" .. hakz.. raz.. he really abit like me.. hakz.. and he is great oso.. haha.. apart from some lame jokes.. and it take abit more time raz.. maybe as time goes on.. we will really be brothers.. who know... hakz.. hehe.. oh yah... my classmates are ALL my good frens.. i feel comfortable wif them.. haha.. they are just.. special.. hakz.. lucky i have them as my classmates~ phew~ even though im the only malay guy.. haha.. yaz.. he is great too.. but sometimes.. i dunno his mind and thought.. hakz.. but it will be great if i have a brother like him.. hakz.. so yah..

thats it.. this entry is just for me to ponder.. hmm.. cos im bored and i just wanted something to think about.. haha..

*i love my life*

wahaha..
~tata~

Happpyyyy~~~~

2006-02-15T00:27:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine Day to all my friends out there!!!

lol.. even though i know im abit late for the wish.. haha!! it pass 12am oredi lar!!!

but still.. haha..

So yah.. went out wif shah, yaz and kay.. go print some items.. den we eat Mcdonald.. actually ice cream only.. and damn!!! i saw a damn beautiful and professionally tuned and modify guitar!!!!! selling at BELOW 1000 BUCKS!!!!! WOAAHH!H!! im gonna get it man!!! im so in love wif it.. haha.. so yah..

Den after awhile.. we go to esplanade.. -_-".. kinda very boring lar.. den met jared.. haha.. he joined us for awhile.. den after dat met my bro magg and his mas!!!! woohoo~ lucky got him!!! at least he really entertain me and make me feel less bored *without him realizing maybe*.. wahaha!! he never fail to make me laugh lar and make me enjoy ah.. and now he is wif mas.. wahaha.. the more the merrier.. wahaha// so yah.. haha.. so we hang out at esplanade rooftop.. den at mrt.. kay ah.. haha.. oso irritating.. hakz.. and entertaining lar.. wahaha.. she keep disturb me and of course.. i disturb all.. wahaha!!! ... den after awhile me, mag and mas go downtown.. hehe.. go eat.. wanna call the rest of the gang down *cos earlier on afternoon we tot of going out~* BUT i know they will be lazy since it is oredi arnd 9pm.. and memek sick *get well soon*... haha.. so yah.. 3 of us eat at downtown.. and as long as i know MAGG.. that bro of mine never fail to mesmerize me wif his way of eating when he is really hungry.. which is damn fast and more than a meal ah.... -_-" wahaha... so yah..

haha.. to think about it.. V day.. it was thought that u spend it wif ur individual love one.. most probably ur gf or bf.. haiz.. i kinda miss the time when i have someone to take care of wat im doing at times.. someone who will call me and i call back.. someone who will chat wif me.. someone who make me laugh and smile always.. someone who understand me.. yes.. i miss all those times of having love of relationship of boy and gerl.. lol.. i dunno why i now find it difficult to accept girls.. im now choosy.. hakz..

But.. i realize too.. that while im "missing" all these.. i got something in return.. i got love from my frens and family.. mok and fri.. call me at times and we share problems and secrets.. they chat wif me.. Magg.. someone who never fail to make me smile widely and laugh.. damn he.. kay.. who care for me and most of the time defend me.. mok, fri, mek, magg and maybe kay and etc.. who understand me for who i am truly... they all.. who are there when i need them.. and of course.. my family... who always support me watever i do and etc.. I love all of u guys... haiz.. *beat magg cos he will say im gay!* hakz..

for example.. i asked magg just now.. my bdae.. i do a chalet.. and ask him whether he will confirm come.. and he gave me a simple answer that is more than it meant..

"i definitely cant say no can i.."...

it just show that... haiz.. they are there when i need them.. hakz.. they are always there.. haha..

so yah.. haiz.. i love my life.. really... hakz..

~tata~

O_0 .....

2006-02-13T13:02:00.000+08:00

ooooooooouuuhhhh....

errrrrrrr...

^_^ wahaha...! juz as i expected actually...

*omg.. im mean...*

cant help it actually.. im particular about all this kinda thing.. sheesh..

and im being bitchy rite now.. wahaha!...

and in respond to melvyn... u dont understand do you.. hakz.. yes yes.. im particularly hate the fact while we playing, attentions were not given.. haha.. but.. realise what u will feel if u are in our shoe.. dats all.. hakz.. and dont worry lar prom people.... haha.. u guys are great at some parts... really.. haha.. i swear.. wahaha.. it is just to see how u all react.. anyway.. i recalled that nite u guys are quite fun at times... hakz.. but still.. u guys are not really a good spectator... hakz... *im changing all this becos of SOMEONE~ hakz.. u shud know ah.....*

and seriusly.. i LOVE the programme committtee.. cos i know.. that the committee have done their best.. lol.. so.. watever it is.. forget all this k.........................

OK.. watever it is.. prom have passed.. and so.. *fullStop*

Soo so so.. later.. going skool maybe?? lol.. meeting shah, raz and yaz.. maybe harbi.. hakz.. so yah.. haha.. next week study week!!! still got alot of thing to do.. haiz.. wth... haiz...

aiyah.. quite tiring ah..~ tata~

Errrrr....

2006-02-12T13:22:00.000+08:00

k.. soooo many things had happened since i last blog.. well.. some sad.. some happy.. some confusing.. and etc.. haiz.. damn lar.. so im gonna blog a long one.. better be ready..

So let me start 1st saying StripedLives got a new singer.. a rock voice singer razin.. so yah.. got some probs and we have to find a new singer.. so yah.. Haha.. Then.. came the Bachelorette thingy.. haiz.. me and yaz is the "bachelor".. hakz.. quite confusing lar.. and.. i oso dunno lar.. errr... haha.. so yah.. was quite a shock thats all ah..

Then.. we had our jamming session as usual.. but on that faithful day on Thursday.. 3 bands were like hanging out listening to our band.. and 2 band ask for song request.. one of them is The Strokes(we dont know how to play ah*) and then Holiday.. haha.. then we are invited by a band to come to their gig as they will be performing.. lol.. funny ah.. haha.. so yah..

So.. on Friday.. that faithful day come.. The Prom Night... DAMN... ok.. let me start over.. i wore my usual style of clothes which make me look very damn punky and japz.. and alfri oso... magg wore the punk kind of bassist look.. and raz wore.. i dunno wat kind of look.. much like pop jazz singer ah.. so yah.. but still ok lar.. lol.. Shah perform 1st.. then we are the 2nd performance.. The crowd basically consist arnd 40-50 people ah.. My band started off playing Holiday with high energy ah.. Awie band.. they are a profesional band ah Awie.. and he oso sing Mr Brightside.. but halfway.. the audience damn boring.. he changed the lyric and sing "cant u see im fu**ing bored.. cant u see im fu**ing bored.. Cant u see i wanna f**k.." and he threw his glass drink and walk off the stage.. WOAH!.. damn!!! lol!!!! anyway thanx to the commitee for the invitation and organisation.. haiz...

Ok.. so after the whole thing.. we hang out till arnd 1.30 am.. den.. we go to Mandarin hotel where kay's couz staying.. so we oso sleep there.. haha.. and then arnd 7am.. alfri and lala were oredi downstairs queing for Singapore Idol.. so yah.. and i and kay joined the crew.. Sha and lala bfren, Yan, oso join us.. Yan was damn fun ah.. lol.. im glad he is wif lala now.. haha.. so yah.. we queue from 7am to 7.30 pm.. 12 hrs!!! and we make frens with many people!! lol.. i make frens with Cicak, Ava, Stephanie.. Guys and gerls queing before their turn were damn supportive ah.. they are like nearly hug me and really support me when my turn going in.. and of all.. hehe.. Jasmine.. hehe.. a pretty cute gerl.. and she got in!! lol.. so yah.. me and alfri.. haiz.. we are damn disappointed.. in 12hrs of waiting.. and in 5 min.. everyting is decided.. haiz.. damn lar.. lol.. so yah.. Kay and Lala got in.. congrats!! haha.. so yah..

So i would like to say im sorry and thanx to the people who support me.. My family.. my couzs... My classmates.. and my DramaTec people.. im sorry i didnt get in.. and thanx for all of ur encouragement and support.. im so proud and happy to have u all.. hakz.. i mean it.. THANX!! love u guys man..

So yah.. disappointed and sad and all.. but still.. it is all an experience.. and i enjoy the time.. thanx.. ~tata~

Holiday...

2006-01-31T23:41:00.000+08:00

Hey! haha.. 4 days of holiday and relaxing at home.. haha.. not really relaxing ah..more like having fun.. haha.. here how i spend my time...

Saturday - .. suppose to go jamming but we forgot that it is CNY eve.. so.. me, alfri and magg go to my aunt house got engagement ah.. den harbi follow.. so we eat first.. haha.. den after arnd 2 hrs.. we leave the place and my couz, Iz, join us to play bowling at downtown.. mok and mek oso join.. so we are having fun ah.. haha.. wth... crazy ah us..

Sunday - I and my 3 couzs from Australia and my couz Iz went downtown again.. we go Escape theme park.. haha.. like wth.. some rides are close.. haha.. we ride the karts.. and damn ah.. we broke all the rules and were liek banging each other car ah..siao seh.. i bang my couz till sparks come out from the side!!! haha.. and my car nearly spin! luckily i pro.. haha.. we are like Initial D sia.. haha.. den we go haunted house.. damn.. haha.. the 3rd time we got in.. we wait at the centre and scare all the people! wahaha!! den after rounds of scaring.. we kena chase out.. haha.. fun ah.. its very enjoyable day.. haha

Monday- Go Sentosa wif my 3rd sis family, mom, 4th sis and fiancee and my couzss... haha.. we play soccer wif the Indonesia ppl there.. fun sia.. i so long never play.. easily tired.. haha. soo... after i driblle pass 3 person n cross.. damn.. im like.. panting sia.. haha.. den we walk ah.. far sia.. my sis take car.. den we couzs decide to walk to have fun ah.. haha.. so yah.. enjoy!.. haha

Tuesday- Meet mag and ishi at arnd 2+ pm.. haha.. den masturah came down to join. den.. alfri called me and we ask him to come down ah.. haha. .siao.. he just got back from batam.. wahaha!! and when we are eating at KFC.. alfri was saying Batam KFC side orders very funny.. and me and ishi.. dirty mind.. imagine that the side orders for the KFC in Batam are prostitutes! damn.. we said that when the customer order side orders.. they can upsize their choice! wahaha!! *u know wat i mean ah*.. haha.. den we go metro find magg formal clothes.. den we play guitar under the block.. haha.. just practise.. hahaha...

so yah// haha.. happy holiday ah me.. die sia.. from tmr onwards.. STUDY!!! haha.. kk.. now i finish here lar k.. haha.. ~tata~

thanx

2006-01-28T01:23:00.000+08:00

Thanx yaz.. haha... thanx bro... im ok lar.. haha.. im chill... *powerpuff gerl song* wahaha!!!!

ps. just blogging this for thanx.. hehe.. and.. im tired~ hakz..

damn!

2006-01-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

hey.. yah.. today is great.. have fun at coregroup.. i try to do the best that i can for the people... luckily ppl take initiatives.. great job for today.. i hope u guys will keep the same level of energy and commitment to it... thanx guys.. and thanx yaz for being the ASSistant incharge and mei li for upgrading urself to our secretary.. wahaha.. thanx...

and im pissed.. i am damn piss.. bcos even though small comment.. it is enuf k.. if u guys think back all properly.. tonite add to the "fucking" enuf k...

cos.. i was saying lar a fact about something.. im just saying dammit... wif no implying.. and guess wat.. i was called "always the good one"... damn.......

no need to tell you readers who lar eh...

shit sia.. wats wrong?! when i am being bad.. i am mean.. ppl say im mean lar.. etc etc.. and irritating.. (dat is still quite ok wif me).. but hey.. when i am trying to be nice and good to everyone... that oso wrong issit??! den wat am i gonna be??! fine.. since i am being too "good" rite... dammit.. den i will just be nasty rite.. yah.. dats good.. u wan me like dat.. i will be.. k.. cos i have enuf.. k.. now.. i will be wat I WAN.. dammit.. i wont care k... if i be bad.. i will have ALOT to nabeh back to you all k.. >_<

shit.. to think of it.. some pple think i only listen to their problem and they listen to mine.. EH... wanna know something?! i am not only listening to ONE DAMN PROBLEMS but i listen to god know how many problems by every ppl.. and hey.. did i just shove them away? no.. i help and advise somemore.. and i dont know why in the world i care to do that.. but i did.. ok.. and u guys heard my problems?? HAH! to tell u guys the truth.. k.. NOBODY.. nobody heard wat a really complain or problem from me lar k.. except my old group.. mag, ishi, fri, mek and especially mok k.. u guys have no ideas wat i really feel.. no ideas wat i really wanna let out.. u guys think ur problems is much ah.. ur worries is greater den mine...? damn! u guys never heard wat i really feel lar.. k...... my family and my old frens know how i feel at times and etc.. damn! i got my life too k.. if u notice.. i got my own life to take care k.. i can anytime dont care.. dont bother... dont take thing seriously.. but i did.. and damn.. for u ppl.. and hey.. yes yes yes.. its WRONG rite... shit..

so yah... and this is nothing ah.. just summarize of wat i feel lar k.. so.. if u readers are speechless... get ur ass out of my blog k.. i dont need the pity k.. cos i only need a listening ears from my close frens.. dats all.. k.. and yah.. i lead a grateful life.. and i dont need anyting else k.. so.. ~tata~...

weee~

2006-01-25T14:57:00.000+08:00

Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care

for others over yourself. However, many

people appreciate your caring side and would

rather stick by you than hurt you. But,

there is a downside. Some tend to abuse your

kindness and take advantage of you. You

always try to see the good in everyone and

try not to hate. Also, you have sharp

insight and a great personality. Calm,

serene, and understanding, you make a worthy

friend and a valuble ally to people in need.

Don't change your sweet nature, your constant

being-there can save a life.

I suggest

your go into a field that centers around

working with others such as a doctor,

baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard, or

Teacher. If none of these occupations

interest you, it is okay then. I am sure

that there are plenty of oppertunities out

there for you.

What type of teenager are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

woohoo!!!~~~~

2006-01-25T01:00:00.000+08:00

Hellloooo guysss!!! and gerlss!!! hehe. .. sorry for not updating long enuf.. i updated twice last time but dunno why never appear.. haha.. so yah.. and oso bz ah.. hehe

So.. ALOT have been happening since i last blog.. we got our performances.. and jam and hop.. and etc etc.. damn fun lar.. haha.. First.. is the IPDS "Sins".. haha.. that was fun ah.. our show turn our great for last minute.. it was good ah!.. haha.. congrats to the fellow DT members involved.. woohooo~.. haha..

Then come the Open House.. woohooo!~ that was great ah.. me, raz and jared compose a song by acoustic guitar.. and it was.. POWER!.. haha.. we put up songs performances.. and it was orite ah.. haha.. it was fun.. then we DT ppl sing many songs such as.. "char siew pao", "my dog drown in river", "smelly pillow" and even a version of punk and arab titled "Hannah"~.. wahaha!! all was impropt lar.. wahaha..!! damn fun lar.. haha.. and got the emily film shooting everytime...wahaha...

Then the jam and hop.. me, kay, raz, along(amin), priya, nad, nadiah(nad couz), jared, mato, hannah and her boifren, nurul, meili, iggy and 2 new DT ppl and 2 other gerls join us for the jam and hop lar.. wahaha.. seems alot ah.. but raining and we abit abit split up.. well.. the first band was great.. the other band at jam and hop.. sucks... damn sucky ah.. no life.. and the hip hop dance and beat box and even Flying Dutchman show was great... wahaha.. sorry shah for missing it.. dunno u work morning.. heh~.. haha.. it was fun lar.. haha... and tiring.. hakz.. thanx nadira and nadiah and iggy for accompany me THROUGHOUT the show.. wahaha.. not like SOME people tired tired then sit aside.. wahaha..! juz kidd.. it was fun!.. haha..

Den just pass up my java project.. lucky finish.. haha.. difficult.. hakz... and i cut my hair!.. damn.. haha.. wrong cut ah.. nabeh.. i wanna keep my front hair n fringe longer but kena cut sia! haiz.. nvm nvm.. haha..

anyway.. alot have been happening ah.. spend time wif shah(crazy ah!).. jared(same ah!).. emily(wahaha!!! plywood!).. kay(wahlaowei...hakz!), raz(oit..hakz), yaz(oso crazy all ah..).. nad(hehe.. *roar*..) most of the time in skewl ah.. not to forget our along! hehe.. wahaha!! all of them crazy lar.. no need to say.. wahaha..

So// i will update more k..wahaha.. here are some pics that summarize the events..wahaha.. so.. ~tata~.. look u guys DT ! wahaha.!! siao*

Presenting.. DramaTec informal "class" photo!!!

The "class" photo.. formal...

That is the during our IPDS performance. the sins...

That is me, nadirah and nadiah.. haha.. at jam and hop.. the rest is behind.. wahaha

me just cut my hair!!!! haiz.. haha

damn tired....

2006-01-06T18:32:00.000+08:00

haiz... ello...

ssssoooo tired!!!!

haiz... just got back from the Will@ tp marathon thingy lar.. haha... yesterday we started at 6pm.. so we practise and practise all the songs ah.. use classicals.. cos we thought later got enuf microphone for the guitar oso..

Den when 12.55 AM came.. yes.. 12.55 AM... we found out there is not much mics.. so.. damn.. i and rozy took turn playing the guitar.. i played 3 songs and she played 2 songs.. damn.. and the singing all like no use n etc.. haiz.. spoil ah.. haha.. but ok ok ah.. den i chat wif Ais till arnd 5.30 am.. den i sleep ah for awhile.. woke up at 9.30 am.. haiz..

Den we got another performance just now ah.. 12 pm.. haiz.. much better ah.. cos i do beat boxing and den the rest sing and rap.. wahaha.. den ok ah.. i go studio 6 back *cos key wif me.. so i anytime can go.. hehe* to SLEEP!!! ahaha.. ! i feel restless seh being out in the hot sun and surrounding cos its like soo sticky ah the body.. so i go studio at 12.30 pm den sleep till 4.30pm.. wahaha.. dont care the others make noise.. but then end up everyone sleeping cos too tired.. lol.. so yah..

haha.. haiz,, tmr going jamming.. but not wif StripedLives or D-R.A... but wif rozy and her couzs.. dunno ah.. i was asked to be the drummer.. haha.. so i agree ah.. fun.. yeah.. haha.. wahaha... so yah.. they got competition.. so yah.. lol.. and then gonna do project.. wahaha.. wif wei shan and evonne.. haha..

so yah..

damn tired~!

~tata~

woohooo!!

2006-01-01T13:07:00.000+08:00

First of all.. To you all out there...

~HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!~

lol.... yeah... haha... damn fun sia...

yesterday.. before going countdown.. me, my couzs and my 3rd sis went to faiz plaza.. damn.. i keep shopping...! haha.. luckily not my money... lol.. wth... im keep buying things man.. lol.. so yah.. den after dat.. we went to esplanade to meet up wif the rest of my family and aunts.. my gang was suppose to join but they cancel cos last minute (alfri found out dat i go countdown so he thought they could join me and my family.. he called me arnd 9pm.. -_-" ) .....wahaha... (magg tired, ishi lazy, mok cannot and bul.. dunnoo..!) lol.. so alfri and memek cancel.. lol..

so yah.. we are so noisy sia.. lol.. we keep shouting and cheering even though havent start.. wahaha.. but then.. the fireworks was awesome! damn.. it was cool! lol... damn power!!.. haha.. den after the thing finish.. me and my 4 couz took the bus home and rest of family took car.. so yah.. wth... the bus ride was 3 hrs long!!! cos the bus went tru all the place from esplanade right down to orchard, bugis, lavender, kallang, aljuned, and down down down like the mrt! wth!! .. haha.. but during the journey.. damn funny!!! haha!!! we keep seeing bangla running for the bus!! and its like... ALWAYS bangla! we never see other races run!! wahaha... *not being racist. but it was still damn funny* wahaha.. den we keep disturbing ppl! wahaha.. during the 3 hrs rite.. we are the wild and noisiest one.. wahaha!! funny ah..

den go home.. we sooo tired and hungry.. ask my couz to cook us up some maggi and den we go sleep after playing a few round of game on my xbox.. lol...

it was a great day... haha

~tata~

hey

2005-12-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

Helloo...

long time never update.. lol.. so yah..

anyway... i just got back from KL on monday morning.. arnd 1 am.. my family and my aunt and couz go to KL on Friday morning.. lol.. did some shopping there.. i bought a damn cool and nice shoe.. woohoo!... and i met alfri family there.. haha.. never meet bul's.. wahaha

so yah.. den got back we got the camp.. DT camp Nexus on Thursday.. it was VERY "fun"!.. weeeeeeeeeeeee -_-".. shit... it is damn waste of time lor.. f**k.. and den.. not many ppl come.. den events are cancel.. wth! i better go OTC rite!.. haiz.. but nvm ah.. spend some times wif DT peepz.. but i hate the IPDS thingy.. hmph.. seriously speaking.. wat an ass.. wat i suggested was ALWAYS "agreed" den later when Priya came and give another suggestion.. my suggestion were just forgotten... poof! just like dat.. even thought others wanna use my idea.. f**king shit.. i hate it man.. SHE.. who doesnt come for workshops, meetings and all etc.. den her suggestions oso like confusing and etc.. if her suggestion can work and good at least its ok u know.. but then ah.. haiz... i have enuf ar.. alamak... its like,, wth... so i stop suggesting ideas.. go to hell ah! im pissed!

hmph.. but overall.. wif my peepz.. and all.. ok ah.. haiz. watever lar.. ~tata~

2005-12-22T01:36:00.000+08:00

thats my gang.. Chio 9.. lol.. the boys onli.. (wth dol ah)

so yah.. haha.. as Magg said in the recent post in his blog.. Brotherhood of JYSS.. lol..

my bros.. haha.. ishi not in thats why i just paste lar..lol.. lazy to edit.. haha.. so yah..

" Friends come in a million.. True friends are there to stay..."

thanx guys..

~tata~

wweee~

2005-12-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

hey bloggy...

bloggy bloggy bloggy...

haiz.. I love this world.. i love the people.. but one thing i hate most... Negative "relationship"..

haiz.. luckily for me.. i have my lovely classmates.. and bros and frens..

in this world.. i feel that.. only certain and special people can actually and truly understand me and know who and what i am.. know wat i feel.. know wat i did.. know wat to do.. and know how to overcome... i know that sometimes i will have this.. aura.. that when im sad.. i will pull ppl down.. and so on.. hmm.. i really realize.. my aura is strong.. dats wat i realized.. hmm...

And soo far.. from frens relationships and matters..... i know dat.. in primary skewl.. i got my own group.. and secondary skewl.. i got my bros and sis.. they know wat i feel.. they know wat is my attitude.. and they dont mind.. and they know dat im rowdy.. and they are.. they are the best... and they are still now.. my bros and sis...

my classmates.. from primary skewl till now.. i have wonderful classmates.. lovely and the best.. i love them.. they care for me.. they willing to guide me if i dont know something.. they willing to be wif me.. and my ITO classmates... the tp classmate.. im sorry i dont spend much time wif u guys... haha... sorry ah!.. haha.. but i will try k.. i love u guys!! hakz.. thanx...

and now.. hmm.. so far.. now.. im close wif a few other ppl.. girl like hally, kay.. and maybe nad, kin and emmy sometimes.. and boys.. the bros who i spend time wif everyday.. especially yaz and raz.. lol.. spend everyday making stupid jokes and doing other stuff when we actually are suppose to study and etc.. its like.. i dunno.. we like never get bored wif each other so far.. funny.. and oso.. ITAS.. wahaha.. we love ITAS.. haha.. and now the jokes.. they nowadays joke like the way my secondary bros does.. really... its like.. yazid is like.. ishi.. except the hard-head isint there.. but.. he was like ishi... and raz.. he was like mag.. haha.. the personality.. except raz is more determine and rowdy... but still.. its like... wow.. i found ppl that actually can be like mag n ishi.. and hally.. lol.. like Mok!! haha.. willing to listen to me when i need it.. thanx.. lol.. thanx...

hmm.. is this the ppl dat gonna be wif me through out poly life.?? hmm.. i hope so.. the best ppl thus far.. other than my bros.. and know wat.. the surprising thing is.. they oso act the same way as my sec bros does.. its like.. my sec bros have our "brotherhood" ring and necklace.. and raz and yaz wanna have too... ring.. woah...

hakz.. i love them.. thanx god.. thanx for letting me meet these ppl.. these damn ppl that i know im gonna miss when they are not there.. lol.. thanx... ~tata~